30 Days Finished & Recap

Before I get to my results, I want to recap what I learned these last 30 days:

-I am a slave to the scale, if I have it in front of me.
-If I stop exercising even for one day, I won't do it the next. Or the next. Or the... you get it.
-Life events like going out to eat for a birthday did not destroy me. I barely touched my delicious food.
-However, cravings might. This month I gorged on a few different days. Most days I only ate once, but I ate all 1500 calories. One day I went over to 2600.
-If there isn't any soda in the house, I can easily drink half a gallon of water, or more depending on the temp outside.
-The more I exercise, the more energy I have.
-PMS will eff with my diet and emotions. It would be better next time if I actually planned an "off day" so I wont deal with any guilt.
-Life is great! Not worrying about the scale or measuring tape, but just enjoying my family and friends.

Okay, here are the results:

Weight- Start: 229 Current: 226 Loss: 3 lbs
Bust- Start: 42 Current: 42 Loss: 0
Waist- Start: 38 Current: 37 Loss 1
Abs- Start: 43 Current: 41 Loss: 2
Hips- Start: 50 Current: 49 Loss: 1
R. Th- Start: 27 Current: 27 Loss: 0
L Th- Start: 28.5 Current: 27 Loss: 1.5
R Calf- Start: 17 Current: 17 Loss: 0
L Calf- Start: 17 Current: 17.5 Gain: .5
R Arm-Start: 13.5 Current: 14 Gain: .5 *
L Arm- Start: 13.5 Current: 15 Gain: 1.5*

*Note: I am not entirely sure I accurately measured these in the first place, but that is the data I had, so whether or not they really were 13.5 inches they are 14 and 15 now respectively. I doubt I gained an 1.5 on one arm in a month, as I didnt do much strength training and all my fat goes to my ass/stomach. It is what it is though.

Total Loss: 3 lbs
Inches: 5.5" lost, 2.5" gained, net loss 3"

My thoughts: I am ecstatic. Remember my goal? If I didn't lose anything at all, I would get my blood work done? Well I lost a little bit, 3 lbs in 30 days, which is 1 lb every week and a half. Pretty good for not really trying. For staying off the scale and recording what I ate, no matter if it was "on plan" or not.

What's next?

Well my birthday is in 28 days from today! I'll be the big 2-3!

Starting now, I am embarking on another journey, a birthday countdown weee! It will be all about weight loss, of course. And activity. Wee!

Tuesdays will be weigh in day. The 28th will be a measurement day. According to MFP (my fitness pal) I should work out 3x a week and burn a total of 760 calories for the week. I think I can manage that!

What I want to accomplish this week:

Tracking. It's starting to become more important to me again, and I actually look forward to adding something to my log, whether its food or activity.

Meal planning: Specifically, snacks. I need to have more of these on hand. I like to snack, like anyone :) I'm thinking I need more string cheese or cheese cubes. I love cheese.

Also, late September is Honey-crisp Apple season. These are my absolute favorite apples! I am not joking when I say that I go through literally dozens of these in a few short weeks. Last year, I was eating 3-4 a day. If they were in season all year round, I am sure I would get all my fruits in.
Of course, like in everything else, I happen to like the exotic brand of apples that are expensive and not in season very long. Just call me diva. Did you know that I considered placing an order on-line to an orchard that had them in stock all season long? But when I found out the price, I changed my mind. It's $90 for a bushel. If I got a bushel it wouldnt last long. Like 2 days.
Maybe when I'm rich.

Ok, I have to skedaddle, my neighbor got a new computer and I have to set it up for her. She's paying me to do it. Wee. I hope it doesnt take long. I have to go get gas and go visit my mom for the season 3 Finale of True Blood, as I haven't seen it yet. Don't spoil it for me!

Day 29- It's almost here!

It's my Weigh-in Eve, sort of like Christmas! Yay!

Tomorrow is the big day folks!


A recap of yesterday:

I ate 1,388 calories of my 1,500.
I went outside and rode my bike for 50 minutes- going longer and faster and further than I have before, and burnt 520 calories.
It was a nice day to get out and ride my bike, I really enjoyed being outside. Despite the fact that there were bugs outside. lol

If every day were like yesterday, I would be 215.1 lbs in 5 weeks :)

Day 28! Wee

I love my fitness pal. I know I mentioned it before, but it really is a great, easy to use tool that allows me to see instant results.

I logged all my food in yesterday, coming in at 1455 for the day, and when I hit "complete this entry" it said "If every day were like today, you would weigh 219.1 lbs in 5 weeks" Wow. Now that is some motivation. I don't know about you, but seeing how much I could lose instead of guessing if I will lose is a great motivation.

You also can track how much water you are getting, whether or not you have extra notes to put in. Like say you go out to eat with your family and you have a steak and mashed potatoes. You log it in and then put in the notes "went out to eat with family" then when you look over your logs later and you see why you went way over one day last week, theres a reminder of what happened. You can also document your feelings or whatever else is on your mind, it shows a direct correlation. I love that word. Correlation.

I need to get my exercise in. I did one day of Biggest Loser body sculpt, but I think I need a new set of hand weights (!) as I am not getting enough resistance on my arms anymore. I am using 2 lb weights, I think I can go up to 5 lbs. Oh, I'm nervous and excited. But I shouldn't be nervous. If I put too much strain on my body with the heavier weights, I can go back to the smaller ones. I know this in my mind. But my head is playing tricks with me. "You'll never be able to. You'll have wobbly arms for ever" Shut up brain.

The reason for not working out is, well, honestly, I've been too busy. I know! Me! Busy! Not lazy! I've been working on the comic book thing and coloring takes up a lot of time. A lot of time. Not to mention that if it doesn't look right, right away, I get panicky and start over. It's been a process. But I am happy to say that I have a bit of free time today and will be doing something. I really wanted a bike ride yesterday but it was rainy. Today it is sunny. Perhaps I will get one in. Fingers crossed.

Day 26....Why did I do that?

My days are quickly running out!

I logged all of my food yesterday- all of it- and I came in at 2620 calories. Which is, needless to say, way way over 1500. By 1120 in fact.

I didn't want to log the food. But whether or not I admitted that I logged it, I still ate it. And I promised to log my food no matter what.

I know why I overate as much as I did. :( I don't regret it, but it did make me think. No wonder I can't lose any weight. I do so well for a while, then I ruin it by eating a lot.

I was pms-ing hard core yesterday. I was on the verge of tears all day, I was so lonely, and if I wasn't sleeping (which was a lot) then I was eating (which was a lot)
I was definitely eating my emotions yesterday. I couldnt stop thinking of chocolates, and cookies, and cakes. I could bake a cake! Wouldn't that be yummy! What about cheesecake brownies... oooh. And ice cream, might as well have ice cream. If I'm having ice cream I might as well have pizza, like a party. A party all for meeeeee..... then reality kicked in. It's not a party if you are sitting there, alone, shoving food down your face while you are crying because you are lonely and just need a hug. who would hug me anyway, with my chocolate streaked face and my pizza stained t shirt?

Today I am much, much better, in control of my eating and not feeling so helpless, hopeless, and lonely. I am still sleeping a lot, I woke up at 4pm.

I also have my water intake up again.

Day 25.....

In 5 short days, my 30 days of me are up. Well not really, all my days are days of me. But my little experiment is coming to an end.

With the middle of September rolling around and my 30 days up on the 14th I'd like to point out some other dates, to help me stay motivated:

-the next Tuesday, 21st, starts the newest season of Biggest Loser on NBC. Time to meet the new contestants and sob like a ninny. Grab the tissues!

-The start of fall! Weeeeeee! booooooots!

-only 12 days until the county fair from my home town. That means elephant ears, gyros, walking tacos, caramel apples, etc etc. as well as lots of walking and scary, rickety rides that I love so much. I am really looking forward to it!

-The 30th is the day my lease is up! what the what?! This will be our third signing.

-only 28 short short days until my birthday. (Oct 5) I'll be 23. It sure would be great to have lost some weight by then, so I can buy new clothes to spoil myself with. If not, any and all money will be used to pay off my credit cards. That's the deal. (Either way, its beneficial, no real losing, right?)

I'm thinking if I havent lost 15 lbs in 58 days (from the start of my 30 days experiment until my birthday) I don't deserve to spend my money on something I love, and I should be responsible with it. Goodness. Let's hope I've lost some, eh? This girl needs new clothes! Or she will be crocheting them all out of itchy yarn!

-New episodes of Mythbusters start October 6th, yay! Jamie wants big boom! And so do I!

-Halloween is coming up! Not that I have any parties to go to, or even want to go to, but I do enjoy the festive-ness of the season. I'm sure hubby's work will have some sort of potluck or something, so I will get to use my creative juices for that.

It's not only the end of an experiment, it's really the start of my fall. I am totally excited to see what this fall will bring. Cool nights, warm jackets, sexy boots, maybe a new wardrobe if I work at it hard enough!

I started My Fitness Pal the other day, and I absolutely love how easy and convenient it is. I can print off reports, if I'm inclined, and a bunch of other neat things. Also when you finalize your food & exercise log for the day it tells you: "If you eat like this every day, you will weigh x lbs in 5 weeks" how cool is that? Talk about motivation!

Plus each member gets a blog automatically (you can't really format them like you can here on blogger, they are all pretty generic looking) and you can do status updates like Twitter or Facebook. It posts your exercise and calories burned automatically as well as whether or not you came in under your calorie goal for the day. I've been honest in my journaling, making entries BEFORE I put anything in my mouth. Let's hope it helps!

I came in 45 calories under for Wednesday, (technically today, I haven't gone to bed yet.) and managed to do 20 minutes of exercise! I did the Biggest Loser Strength Training and Sculpt, or whatever it's called. It's a rough 20 minutes especially with those damned reverse crunches. I hate them I hate them I hate them--- but I feel them working my gut, so thats a good thing. Maybe I will learn to love them! I doubt it, but there's always hope.

What I want to accomplish in the next 5 days:

-Journal every day. No matter if I go over or not. Journal.
-Work out 20 minutes a day. Even if it's walking.
-Drink my 8 glasses of water a day. Which wont be hard, as hubby has banned soda from the house! :( I was doing well, then we got Diet Mt Dew and I guzzled it all down like an SUV on unleaded.


I think that's plenty for now :)

Day 24-My Fitness Pal

Welp, I found a new website/iPhone app to use to log my calories and exercise. It's MyFitnessPal.com I am pretty excited about this one. Previously I was using Lose It! and while that one worked well enough, the database just wasn't what I was looking for. It was hard to edit things. This one is great! It has homemade foods, fast food, restaurants, store bought foods, and you can easily just slap in some calories if you are in a big hurry. Say you made your lunch and you measured it out, portioned it, and you know it was 250 calories but you don't have the time to manually add the meal in (because you spent most of your lunch counting portions haha) then you can just put under the "Lunch" category that you ate 250 calories. Still being responsible!

It also remembers what you eat the most of, so if you are a creature of habit and have your cereal for breakfast every morning-bam!- ten seconds to log your meal! Best of all, its online as well as an app, and both are 100% FREE!!

There are also neat little tools like the weight loss ticker (see my new one up top?) Basal Metabolic Rate calculators, BMI calculators and a few other things as well as a forum for support or making new friends. Also a great way to find more bloggy friends if you don't have enough on your blog roll (like me!)

Based on my height and weight it told me that I should be eating 1500 calories a day, which is 100 more than I was- yippee! lol I can have an extra snack!

You can also set up exercise goals- I want to work out 3x a week, 30 minutes each, for instance, is the default. It also tells you how many calories you should burn during that week, which for me, is 760 calories.

Last night I made super yummy enchiladas for dinner, surprisingly hubby wanted them again, he said mine were the best! ;) I made him chicken and I made mine beef, I had some left over shredded beef I needed to use up and he didn't want any, so his loss, right? It worked out though, as I made 3 chicken breasts for his enchiladas and there was barely enough to cover his dinner and lunch today! (He really liked them haha) I had 3 enchiladas between yesterday and today, at 400 calories each! Yikes. But hey, I eat what I love. I know its like an opportunity cost- My calories are a scarcity- I have a finite number of them. If I eat full calorie cheese and flour tortillas, I will have less calories for other meals throughout the day, but I get full flavor. If I eat low carb or low fat foods, I can eat more of them, but it tastes worse. Hmm. I can always do a combination of both, too. As long as I stay under 1500 calories.

I also drank a lot of water yesterday- over half a gallon! I told my mom this and she misread what I typed and thought I drank a whole gallon, which I wouldn't be able to do anyway, and she told me to be careful. Aww, bless. I found if I have a straw for my water bottle, I suck it down quicker. It also has to be REALLY cold. I am sooo picky about my drinks. If its a cold drink, it has to be ice-cold (minus actual ice) and if its a hot drink, it has to be boiling lava hot, or I won't drink it.

I'm such a weirdo sometimes.

I have a pedometer that I have been using and I have to say, my numbers are shockingly low, even though I work from home, I still thought I would move more than I do! Here's how it looks so far:

Saturday- 4450 steps (this was the day I went to the car auction/swap meet)
Sunday- 1718 steps (I went grocery shopping this day)
Monday- 686 steps
Tuesday- 300 steps (!!!)
Wednesday- 125 (So far, after all, the day's not over!)

No wonder my legs, knees, ankles, and hips were protesting on Saturday. Even if I took my second highest day, Sunday, I was doing quadruple what I normally do! Eff! With an office job, I would do about 5000 a day. I thought I wasn't getting enough in then, if I could tell that me what this me does a day, that me would feel proud of herself. And maybe then she wouldn't have gained as much being depressed.


Okay bloggy friends I have to get some exercise in today, in some manner. I have a busy afternoon/evening ahead of me. I have to do some work and then I have to get my butt in gear coloring for the comic book I am doing. It's a pain to get started but once I do it everyday I will be flying through the pages in no time. I am pretty sure that they want it done ASAP as it's already been in the works for over a year and a half before it came to my husband and I. And he had to completely re-draw the comic, now I get to color it. Lucky for me, for the most part it comes natural to me. I just have to get to the point where I can knock out a page in a few hours instead of a few days. 35 pages. If I could get to the point where it took only 4 hours to color a whole page, I could do it all in under 5 days. Right now, its like 12 hrs a page. So that will take considerably longer. Also I have no idea how to do backgrounds, so that will require some research. Eep. Stop typing already, get moving Christie!

Ciao xo

Day 22- What Happened Here?

Yesterday we went grocery shopping and then we went out to my favorite Mexican restaurant! I got a shredded beef burrito slathered in mole sauce and cheddar cheese and a ground beef enchilada, with refried beans and rice! Yum! I couldn't eat but half of it and took the other half home. I was so full! 5 hours later, I ate the other half. Again, I was really full.

I loved it and I don't regret my choice... Until this morning. I stepped on the scale and I was up 4.5 lbs. Yeah, I'm now back where I started! So from today until the 14th, I've got some goals to accomplish:

-I will drink at least 32 oz of water every day.
-I will take all of my fiber supplements
-I will count calories and stay under my budget
-I will work out every day.
-I will not eat out. I will cook/make all my meals.
-I will count my steps on my pedometer
-I will stay off the scale. It's messing with my head again.


This afternoon I got up and started slugging back water, took half of my fiber supplement and then made a salad. I woke up at noon, so it was time for lunch rather than breakfast!

2 oz of mixed greens (spinach, endive, and some baby lettuces/greens all mixed up) and 2 oz of diced ham cubes, 1/4 cup of shredded cheese, and 2 Tbl of light French dressing for a total of 285 calories.


Yesterday was a nice day but I have to get back on plan. I was doing soooo good. I would hate to have undone all my progress for the month because I enjoyed my enchiladas! :)

Day 20- I did what now?

Day 20.

Family fun day in my little hometown with its annual parade and festival for car fanatics from around the world. There was a parade, there was a swap-meet with all sorts of things from furniture to car parts to funky visors with fake ugly hair attached, old baby buggies, vintage mirrors, gas pumps and vending machines, ice shavers. It was amazing! Hubby and I were kind enough to go with my dad. I say "kind enough" because he is known to dwell at a swap meet for HOURS and HOURS on end. With all sorts of fair food and drinks, port-a-potties and cars worth hundreds of thousands of dollars on display and up for auction, it's easy to lose track of time.

This particular venture lasted two hours. I was wearing my Shape-ups and walking on gravel roads is not any fun. Soon my hip began hurting a little. Then my bad ankle. Suddenly I had pain shooting down my entire leg. I only whispered to hubby that I was in a lot of pain. I grit my teeth and beared it though. This is once a year stuff! Also, I haven't even exercised in almost 3 weeks, what do you expect?

We sat down for a bit, probably 10 glorious minutes, before we headed back home. I had a pedometer and I walked 5000 steps (significantly more than usual) I logged it into my iPhone and I had burned about 500 calories walking for so long. No wonder I was sore!

I am feeling better today. My hip was still very sore, but it cracked and I felt it snap back into place and now I am able to walk weeee! my ankle hurts though, and today's exercise will be limited to grocery shopping as we are out of everything to eat! I feel like a fat disability woman though I know its only temporary. :(

Im well aware of how funny this all sounds. Imagine if I had to go to the doctor and explain my injuries. "Now tell me how you got injured, Mrs HTMLN." "Well doc, I was walking." "And?" No that's the end of the story. Walking. My fat arse was walking trying to get in shape and I hurt myself." Doctor blinks, mouth hits the ground. "Well take it easy for a few days..." "But that's how I got fat, I took it easy for a while and then gained and gained."

LOL

Day 17

Well it is day 17 now kiddos.

It's been an interesting journey so far. I started out all gung-ho: Exercise every day, get on top of my apartment chores, be clean and happy, lose some weight, buy new clothes yada yada yada I had all of these plans in my head.

I secretly hoped I would lose 15 lbs in a month (laughable)
I secretly hoped that I would be able to fit into my new jeans I bought that are waaay too small.


But I am secretly pleased that I've even lost any weight, that I've stayed under 1400 calories for most of my days (minus the family get together) and I noticed I definitely can't eat as much as I used to. Though I'm sure if I tried I could get back to where I was before *grumble*

I am having a harder time today than usual because my pantry/freezer is getting rather skint and its hard to find something to eat that isn't ramen. Unfortunately I'm broke as a joke, and I have 2 more days until hubby gets paid before I can go grocery shopping. The good news is though, being poor is definitely the best diet plan :) can't eat what you don't have!


My tummy is a grumblin' luckily I have a few chicken breasts left. I have already started day dreaming about what I will buy at the store this week hehe! The weather was cooler last week and I had thought about making chili but now it's gotten hotter, and next week is looking much of the same so far. I guess chili will have to hold off.

I've also been craving spinach. I blame Alexia at My Wicked Wicked Ways She's been tweeting about eating spinach lately and it's got me drooling. I will have to pick up a bag on Friday when I am able to go grocery shopping. I'm having day dreams of spinach salads, chicken and spinach alfredo over whole grain pasta, lunch meat sandwiches with spinach.... spinach and artichoke dip with toasted pita chips...

Day 16- Where's the Exercise?

Ha! I've not exercised in two weeks. God. I keep meaning to. I just dont. Maybe tomorrow. Who knows.

I also had pizza last night. Pizza is one of my trigger foods. I love it so much. I just eat it all the time. I haven't had any in at least 15 days :) Anyway, we got a frozen one and we split it 60-40 (I got less) I hadn't eaten all day so I had all my calories in one fell swoop. It was so good, so delicious! After it was all gone I was really sad and contemplated getting another!!!!! but I assessed my feelings: My *body* was full (stuffed!) and my *mind* was missing the experience of eating eating eating eating. So I started crocheting and soon forgot about pizza. Though I did have to deal with the smell of roasted garlic and cheese all night long in my kitchen....

Also I totally weighed myself today! I cheated! YAY! Wait... that's a bad thing. Not really. I used to weigh myself at least once a day, now I have gone 2 weeks without looking at the scale and hey, guess what? Surprise! a 4 lb loss.

In two weeks.

Hallelujah!

But nothing is official until I get on the scale on Sept 14th.

It just proves to me that it was the scale messing with my head and that if I just *shock* ate in moderation I would lose weight. And this is a 4lb loss including Sunday- a day off plan- and Monday- delicious pizza day.

I ate a cheesy double beef burrito today (480 calories) and had 2 diet mountain dews. It was on sale, $4.50 for a 24 pack, which is usually $8. How could I refuse? Luckily I didn't have gobs of money free or I would have bought out the whole supply!

My new crochet project is a pair of slipper-sock-bootie-things for my mom. In purple, of course. they are called "Pixie Boots" and they look like elf boots but they are so cute! I was going to make some cottage socks but the pattern confused me so I will just have to decipher it another time.

I will be posting pics! I've already got another request for a second pair, from my dad. He hasn't seen what they look like only what the yarn feels like, so I may just work up his pair and not show him the pic haha :)
I also have to make hubby a beanie cap too. :) Im a busy woman!

this weekend is a great weekend planned, I have a day off work to enjoy spending time with my whole family at a labor day parade :) I will be taking pics that day too. There will also be sidewalk sales! I love sidewalk sales!

Day 15- Half-way there!

Firstly a recap of yesterday, Day 14

-Family function day! It was my mother in law's birthday celebration, so we went out to eat. I had made sure not to eat before hand. I knew it was going to be an "over budget" day.

We went to eat at a nice place and I had 2 pita chips with a spoonful of spinach-artichoke dip, 1 breadstick, and four bites of my awesome burger! It was a goat cheese and white cheddar garlic burger on a toasted garlic french roll. Needless to say, I was burping up garlic all day! I also had baked mac and cheese on the side, of which I sampled. I boxed up the rest and took it home. Then we headed back to the in-laws for cake and ice cream. I had one scoop of butter pecan ice cream and one modest slice of cake. I was sooo stuffed!

That's more than I've eaten in a long time! Later that night, I had the rest of the mac and cheese and the burger came split into two halves, hubby had one and I had the other that I had nibbled on earlier. Sooo good.

Yesterday was also the day I gave away the beautiful wrap I had been working on. I was sad to see it go *sniff sniff* but she loved it so much, it made me really happy. I almost cried. But keep that between you and me, internet!

I know I look upset, but I am trying not to drop my phone, I swear!

It's really big, bigger than my arm span, which is 5ft4 :)

The shell detail.

I ended up using over 13.5 ounces of yarn, which is 3.5 ounces more than the pattern called for, but when I completed it per the instructions it was way way too small, so I added another section (and another ball of yarn!)

Now I am going to make some socks. I'm nervous about it but I hope they turn out. I have some lovely warm yarn to use for them, purple of course! :) It's a beginner's level pattern but it's full of increases and decreases, so I have to practice that before I can start them. I have lots of practice yarn too.

Instead

Instead is such a great word. Let's use it in a sentence shall we?

i'd really like to have Ben and Jerry's cream cheese brownie ice cream right now, instead I'll have a frozen yogurt.

I'm so hungry for pizza but I will have a turkey and cheese sandwich instead.

I wanted to make frosted brownies, so I bought a brownie mix and frosting, but just ended up eating the frosting instead. Wait... that one didn't come out so good lol

Let me try another one... I wanted to run today but I slept instead.

I think you all get the point any way :)

PS Best ice cream ever.

Day 13- Battling the Inner Me

A short conversation with myself:


Me: Morning self, you have a busy day ahead working all day
Self: Yeah I know I am not going to feel like doing anything else
Me: Yeah its worth it in the end though.
Self: I should totally get some roast beef sandwiches from Arby's.
Me: Mmm I love roast beef.
Self: Let's go get some.
Me: No.
Self: Make hubby go.
ME: Tempting.
Self: You should. Do it.
Me: Really tempting. But no. I'll just have a sandwich.
Self: How about pizza? You love pizza just as much as I do!
Me: Maybe even more. That does sound good, but I can't control myself with pizza.
Self: It's ok! You deserve it. You've been good every single day!
Me: Ha! Nice try. Hubby will make me a sandwich.
Self: ....but I love pizza.
Me: We can have a pita pizza later. I'll make it with turkey pepperoni.
Self: *pouts*
Me: *ignores it*
Self: ...but I'm still hungry
Self: ....really hungry.
Self: Hey! I'm hungry! Do something about it!
Me: *drinks diet soda*
Self: Are you listening?
Self: Hello??
Self:....fine! When I starve to death it will be your fault.
Self: Why can't I have pizza?
Me: I already told you. I can't control myself. Sorry.

I'm still debating internally but basically it just goes back and forth "yes!" "no!"

Don't worry, I'm not going to succumb to the allure of pizza. I do love it but some day I will be able to have a piece and enjoy it. I hope. Sweets and chocolate aren't so hard to ignore, it's pizza and pasta that I love :(

Day 12- 30 days of me

Yesterday all I could think about was the scale. Today I went to mom's and hopped on her scale and made her look at the number. I stared at the ceiling. I want to see the number for myself but I know I would be discouraged if I did, even if I was doing great, I would be upset.

She told me "you've lost what you can expect to lose in a week and a half" which means the weight isn't falling off but slowly going down. Probably 2-3 lbs or so. Which is so much better than what I was afraid of and half expecting, which would be a 2-3lb gain. While I don't know the real number, or whether or not she was even telling me the truth, that I lost at all, I'm done with that battle.

I've been really out of it today. I took a shower and did my hair, make up, I even got dressed up (I wore a skirt!) but I can't seem to focus on anything today. It's so hard to connect the dots. I was supposed to bring by a cord to my mom so she can hook her iphone up to the tv, and that was the whole reason for my visit today. And I forgot it.
I couldn't find my keys, they were in my hand. I couldn't find my phone, it was in my pocket. I couldn't remember if I locked the door or not, did I stop at that stop sign? I can't remember.

My head isn't filled with other things or distractions but it's very hard to focus. I took my crochet stuff and I worked on my mother in law's wrap. I am almost out of yarn, that sucks. I've still got a row left to do and the edging. I thought I would have enough, but I guess the bigger it gets the more yarn it uses. Its fan shaped, so you use very little yarn at the bottom and more and more as you work your way out. Hopefully I can find some more in the same dye lot or I will have to pull out what I've got and finish it off then. Lucky me, right?

Goober was sick today, must have been something he ate because he jumped up next to me and threw up. Almost on my wrap, and then I'd have been ruined, because I don't think it would be salvageable. I did lose a bag in the process though. I'm not upset, I feel sorry he's sick, and I'm thankful he didn't get anything important. It does irk me however he puked on the day bed instead of the floor haha

I was a good kid and cleaned it up so mom didn't have to. :( Poor baby.

And that was my day. I lead such an interesting life. I know you are all so jealous. I'm going to try the Biggest Loser high impact cardio tonight. I am sort of afraid of how it will turn out. But what if I can do it?? What if my excuse of "It will hurt my ankle" is actually a crutch?! Ohhh revelation....

We will see. I'll let you know how I do

Day 11

Today my mom and grandma are coming over- supposed to, anyway- to go swimming. However its been a lot cooler lately and I know that the season is changing and coming to an end because I wake up stiff and sore in my ankle every morning and it takes a bit of time to get my foot working like its supposed to.

I don't know if we are going swimming or not, the weather is supposed to be 74 which seems kind of cold since its been in the high 80s all summer.

I have been suffering from twitchy eye all day. My right eye lid keeps wigging out and twitching, not a spasm as it doesnt hurt but it is very annoying. It will go away though eventually.

Day 11. Wow. Only 19 more!

Day 10 Holy Crap

Holy crap I am already at a 1/3 of the way through my 30 days of me. I tell you what, it's been a blessing in disguise.

Every morning I wake up and head to my bathroom to get on the scale, but it isn't there. I pout for a moment thinking I should go look for it, because I want to seeee what I am doing. But it passes, mostly because I forget its existence soon after. I make hubby's lunch and hang out with him for a few moments before either returning to bed or turning on my game :)

I've been so obsessed with this game lately which I thought would be a bad thing, but it really isn't, I don't eat all day while I play. I stop when I notice I've gone light headed then its time for a chicken breast and some cottage cheese, which tides me over until hubby gets home late at night, then I make dinner. Lately it's been spaghetti.

Last night was the first night I really "pigged out" I had 1 cup of mac and cheese and 1 bbq pulled pork sandwich (without cheese! I know! Whats wrong with me!?) and I was s to the tuffed!

Im still full now and it's been over 15 hours.

I've been eating my little fiber tablets too they are starting to taste good. I guess that's what you get when you dont eat candy or sugar for a few days. I have been drinking my fruits too, oh yes my juice, I love juice. I know it has calories and thats probably why I havent felt hungry, I've been drinking my meals instead of eating them, but it really helps me feel fuller longer. I am often so stuffed with a glass of juice that I can't even think of eating anything on top of that. I hear my stomach slosh when I walk for hours :)

I cant believe its already day 10. I am starting to get nervous (what if I don't lose any?!) but in that case my backup plan has always been to go get my blood work done. If I am staying under 1200-1400 calories a day and not losing any weight at all (which shouldn't happen considering I was eating 2500 a day) then something else is wrong, something internal. It isn't my problem with food at that point, it's my body isn't working right.

I am going to get back to exercising too. I enjoy being on my butt all day playing video games but I also enjoy the feeling of being totally exhausted, omg I'm going to die, what do you mean the workout is over I made it through! yippee! that I get from working out.

Day 7 & 8- 30 Days of me

Day 7 (Sunday)

Unremarkable in nearly every way, except I went grocery shopping. Huzzah!

Day 8 (Monday)

I went to my mom's to watch the latest episode of True Blood and while there, she mentioned she had cookies if I wanted one. Soft, delicious Lofthouse brand cookies. Sugar cookies with thick, sugary frosting and sprinkles. So good. So soft. So delicious. So... fattening. 320 calories a cookie. And I could eat all ten.

But today, I ate it slowly. I actually forgot I had the cookie in hand, as I was watching American Chopper. I ate a little more of it and gave the last bite to Goober. He always gets the last bite.

Also had half of a roast beef sandwich. Wasn't going to eat it. But then mom put cheese on it. Cheese is my kryptonite.

Then I had spaghetti for dinner.

I've been playing Oblivion lately, which is a fantasy-adventure game on the XBOX 360. Surprisingly little has been done around the house. I may have to restrict my own playing time until I get the house clean. No dishes are clean in the house and the laundry is piling up. But I am now officially the head of the Mages Guild, so take that! HAH!

Day 6- 30 Days of Me

Day 6

I am so tired, stupid tired too. I couldn't fall asleep last night, until really early this morning, about 7 am then it was only a few short hours of sleep as I had to work a lot today.

I have been grumpy and slow witted, sluggish all day. Even caffeine, my one true love very best friend, has not helped me wake up.

For eating, I had a bean and cheese burrito and a small bowl of spaghetti and garlic bread. I love garlic bread. Mmmm

That's all I got folks. Tomorrow will be a better day. I am headed off to la la land to have pleasant dreams of magnificently tall Swedish vampires. Named Eric Northman.

I'm so specific on what I dream about.

Day 5- Cheat Day- 30 days of me

Woah woah woah. I know what you are thinking. Lady can't even go a week with out cheating on her diet! What a failure!


But I didn't cheat. Nope. Not on my diet.

See hubby got paid today. And I didn't get to sleep until 6 am. I was tired. I didn't want to get up in 5 hours and make his lunch. Plus he was out of almost everything anyway. He had been so good all week. Eating my homemade lunches of sandwiches, celery and carrots, strawberries, chips and cottage cheese. He hasn't spent any money on soda at work (partially because I bought soda specifically for his lunches and partly because it's really expensive that way)

Today is HIS cheat day. Yep he gets to go to a local fast food joint and eat whatever his little heart desires. He gets this once every two weeks, on payday. The other friday, he gets leftovers from a home cooked meal :) See, everything worked out great. I also got a bit of a cheat day because I got to sleep longer. Mmm sweet, sweet sleep.

And I dreamed about vampires! Squeal! I'm so pumped up for this week's epi of True Blood.

Anyway, so I just got up. I go look in the mirror and I can't stop looking at myself. Last night I was laying on the couch next to hubby and I kept asking him "Do my boobs look smaller?" I kept holding them, they felt lighter. I made him feel (like I had to make him pffft) and I got an "I think so." as an answer.

I'm pretty sure it's my imagination. I don't really think they would shrink noticeably in 5 days. But what the point actually is, is I feel like I am smaller, sexier, great. That's all that matters. Part of me is itching to find the scale ("Let's see how much I weigh now! I bet I've lost 5 lbs!") and the other part, the lazy part and responsible parts, ironically, are both saying "No!" Lazy doesnt want to go find it and the responsible part made a promise to hide the scale for 30 days.
Instant gratification will have to wait.

As I was up so late last night, I started a series of Tweets on Twitter. So here they are, in handy dandy list form, for those of you who like lists.

You Know You Are Fat When:

-You secretly hope for a tapeworm/illness/salmonella to speed up weight loss
-You have to buy a cake mix to justify that can of frosting in your cart, only to eat the frosting in your kitchen with a spoon.
-You scarf down your peanut butter m&ms so fast that they fall in between your tits and you don't notice until much later, but you EAT IT ANYWAY
-The only "buy one, get one free" offers that excite you are for fast food joints (my personal favorite, I chuckle everytime I read it)
-You have to put the brownie down to finish this sentence (courtesy of my mom, who was indeed eating a brownie when I asked her to finish the sentence hehe)

I'd love to hear your ideas! And yes, I have done all of those. :(

Day 4 (30 days of meeee)

Today was successful...ish.

I ate well and I got dressed did my hair, and took a pic. I need to take more pictures of myself. It took some time to find the motivation to get dressed, because, well.. I couldn't stop staring at myself. In the mirror. Nudey. I feel like my body is already lighter, thinner, and feeling stronger. I wont know for sure, until Sept 14th, but hey, I feel sexier even. That's what really matters, right?

Then I played a new game all day. Its called Oblivion, and it's not a new game as in it just came out, but more like, we just bought it. New to me.

I had 1 cup of dry cheerios for breakfast (140 calories)
I had 1 baked chicken breast for lunch (140 calories)
For dinner, which I am making right now, 1 cup of mac n cheese (210) 1 chicken breast (140) and 1 piece of garlic toast with cheese (200) 1/2 cup of cottage cheese (80)

Total for the day 910 so far. I may eat another piece of garlic bread or have another serving of cottage cheese. Mmmm.

I have a mild headache, but I think that's from eating a lot less lately and my body is revolting getting used to my new eating habits.

Tomorrow: Day 5!!

Busy day tomorrow, I work a lot. So will try to keep my eating on track. It's getting easier as I keep my mind and hands busy, so I don't see any problems.