Surprise, Surprise!

Meetings seem to work! I went for my first weigh in at meetings today, and I lost 1.6 lbs! Woohoo! I also got a "Bravo!" sticker for having my first loss since who knows when. It feels good to be moving in the right direction again!

Stickerrrrrrr!

The cool thing about being a Monthly Subscriber? The fact that it updates my eTools automatically with my weigh in! Yay! That is a pleasant surprise.

Also as I was leaving, a member came up to me and said that she was so glad I started coming to meetings because I, and I quote, "add a lot of life to them" which made my day. I told her thank you so much for saying that, because I needed to hear something positive today. My friends who know me in real life know that I easily add life to any gathering because I am LOUD. My first meeting, I sat in the back and basically shouted my opinions. Hahaha.


Other WWers: where do you put your stickers? I couldn't think of anywhere to put mine, except in my weight record. Is that a good place? Should I get a special sticker booklet? Or put it on my motivation wall? Hmmm


I also went to the gym tonight- shock. I made a promise and a goal this week to go to the gym 3 times. All three times I would do strength training, and 2 of the 3 times I would do cardio. I just did strength training tonight and a bit of tanning and it was good. I enjoyed it. I was pleasantly sweaty. I think I enjoy lifting weights because I can see improvements quicker. I can either do more reps or lift more weight and it is stimulating.

I don't mind cardio; it's easy to just hop on the elliptical, crank up the resistance and my music and zone out. Sometimes I think up funny little stories and type them in my phone; other times I think about Benedict Cumberbatch. Trust me, not all my heavy breathing is due to being out of breath! That man's voice is sex covered in chocolate and marshmallows.

I just imagine him cheering me on. Or whispering in my ear.
Or whispering between my thighs.

Once I am at the gym, I find that I thoroughly enjoy it. It's weird because I am super lazy. But get me out the door and I will work hard at the gym. It's just going that is the trouble.


Anyway, I had a really rough weekend and start to my week. First, Loki got into something and spent the entire weekend kitty-barfing and kitty-pooping all over the apartment. He wouldn't eat or drink water on Saturday and on Sunday he just laid next to the water bowl and didn't move all day. His episodes were so uhm ... persistent? ... that we had to give him a bath and wash off his butt. Yeaaaah that was fun. Then he went into his litterbox with still wet fur, and got litter stuck to his fur. So I am going to have to cut it out. The little buttmunch is better now, though.

Drake has decided naps are for chumps and sleeping is for pussies, because he has given up sleep. It's terrible. He only sleeps an hour or two at a time at night, and only about 30-45 minutes during the day. I have no clue what is going on. A growth spurt? Teething? Maybe he's just an asshole? I don't know, but it has been a LONG LONG few days. Last night he was up every other hour. And I spent a good portion of the night and early morning on the living room floor while he watched Pocoyo until my eyes & ears bled.It was grueling.

Yep. That was my week. How was yours?

Weekend Recharge and Small... Medium... Rant.

Slept a lot this weekend. I guess Brian realised that without me getting sleep the house falls into a black hole of chaos and disorganization and mess and a thousand other adjectives to describe it.

I get overwhelmed easily, especially when it comes to cleaning, so while I slept, Brian cleaned the house for me. He got everything done but 2 loads of dishes. Wow!! I woke up to a completely different house. I loved it! What a great man I am married to. He did make me promise to "at least try" to stay on top of it this week. He didn't do it all to be a wonderful husband though- he wanted to have friends over Sunday, so he knew he had to accomplish something to "convince me" (whatever works, I guess)

In other news, I realized that I am a sack of worthless crap when it comes to being a housewife. I can't stand not working, so I picked up my full schedule again. Good thing too, it's been super busy lately and that just means more money for me!! After a really easy month in April, it feels great to be swamped and busy again.

I still haven't been to the gym since Wednesday night but that is okay, I have still been doing my squats and weight lifting at home. I am eager to hit the gym today though and get in my HIIT. That's high intensity interval training for those of you who don't know what that means. Basically, its short intervals of high intensity exercise (ie run like the zombies are chasing you) followed by medium intervals of recovery (ie, strolling through the library) and you repeat those for about half an hour to 45 minutes.

So I've been doing 30 seconds of zombie running followed by 60 seconds of oh my god I am going to die I need to walk to recover let's pretend I found the world's biggest library and wander around in it for ever-- OH GOD ZOMBIES!!! RUUUUUN

it's entertaining, at least.

In 15 minutes I manage to burn nearly 300 calories, so you can imagine my excitement when I can push it to twenty. I usually cap out around twenty or twenty five minutes, then do a cool down for 10 minutes (hey, it's rough, ok? I max out my heart rate EVERY TIME) then I hide in a corner until I stop hyperventilating.

Friends, I lost 2.2 lbs this week, bringing my total since I restarted WW up to 3.4 lbs, and I am down 23.4 lbs from my highest weight! I have lost a toddler in weight, folks, and it feels GREEEEAT. (yes, said in the Tony the Tiger voice. You're welcome)

I have 1.5 lbs until I hit my 10% goal at WW! 5 lbs until I hit my personal mini-goal! So things are moving right along in the positive direction! I just need to keep doing what I am doing- tracking everything that passes my lips and working out like a beast. Ideally I would like to be under 200 pounds by Drake's 2nd birthday, but realistically I will settle for 215- that would be all of my baby weight GONE in two years, averaging out to about .5 lb a week. SAFE. That gives me 35 weeks to lose 20 lbs, so I think that is plenty of time. I may even surprise myself and hit my 200 mark.

We have had a rough couple of nights around here, Drake has NOT been sleeping more than an hour or two at a time, and it is driving both of us bat shit crazy. Mostly me though, because Brian had to work today so I got him every time he woke up. Which sucked, because I was working too.

**Caution, the following is a rant. Those who do not want to read it may go to this page here and look at fluffy kittens. Those who want to see what ticked me off should keep reading.***

Also, tiny little side rant. This woman who was checking out our groceries really pissed me off. She was talking to the woman in front of us, us, and the woman behind us, the entire time about her child with disabilities. This is not what upsets me, I understand caring for kids is hard enough, and 12395798567293874 more intense when they have disabilities or special needs.What upset me was the woman in front of us was DONE PAYING and the cashier would just NOT let her go. Then, when we get up there she comments on Drake, not unusual, he gets lots of attention. But the first thing she says is "WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIS EYE?!?!" in this huge loud annoying voice so everyone looks around. So I say "Nothing is wrong with his eye." "THEN WHY DOES IT LOOK ALL FUNNY?!" Obviously she was not graced with a huge vocabulary....I'm getting ruffled and about to blow my lid. Drake has been crying the entire time we have been shopping, I hadn't eaten in awhile so I was hangry, and Brian takes over and explains that there is not anything medically wrong with his eye, but he does have a coloboma in it. Then he explains what that means blah blah blah.... and the bitch goes "Oh." and looks VISIBLY DISAPPOINTED that there is nothing wrong with his vision. Then she goes on to say "Shouldn't he be wearing glasses at all times then?" So I said "what part of there is nothing wrong with his eye don't you understand?" and I left. Hahahaha took all the groceries and Drake, and just left Brian to pay.

Yeah, that's right. If you complain about my son's eye after we have explained that there is nothing wrong with it, I will snap at you and get snarky. And you deserve it. Also I know that part of it is because Drake was being cranky and I was frazzled and hungry myself, so I had ZERO tolerance, but I don't play nice with people who keep insisting they know what is "the correct" way to "treat" his eye. Look, PAL, we have an EYE DOCTOR for that VERY REASON. And if the EYE PROFESSIONAL says there is nothing wrong with it, I do not want your cashier expertise on the matter. Unless I am writing you a check.

Rant over.


I have some exciting things coming up this week, like a baby shower for my best friend, a birthday party for Brian's friend, Mother's Day (!!) and next week is our 4th Anniversary!! So I can't wait to show you what I have been doing to prepare for all of that stuff.

Big Red X- Weigh In #2

Tracking honestly is hard work. Especially when you know that you shouldn't be going over your points or that you really shouldn't be eating pizza... you know how it is. I just sort of feel like if I don't track it, it didn't happen. Of course that is the exact opposite of the truth. It did happen. Let's not be delusional. That being said, it's not been the greatest week food wise. I ate a LOT of extra points that I just did not have.

But still, I tracked. Because that is the whole point. I didn't feel like I had gone hog wild or that it was a free for all, but ate normally... Pretty sad when eating normally means I was super overeating my allowance. But that is the whole point of tracking, to identify behaviors and see what is going on and to be aware of just how much is much too much.

It is really easy to over eat. A slice or two extra of pizza. A bit of Chinese food. A peanut butter shake. You know these things add up and really quickly. But the important thing is acknowledging honestly that you ate them and being aware of how many points it does cost. It's a hard thing to face when you realize that regular shake just cost you 29 of your 37 daily points.

Anyway, all that said, I managed to lose another pound this week. I am down to 235 for a total of 6 lost in two weeks. Pretty good I say!

This week is all about portion control and trying to stay within reasonable limits. Not eating an extra 141 points.  But hey- Sunday is a new week for me.

A new week to start over. A new week to try and rein in some of these crazy eating. Although to be honest- this was a normal week for me :( But each day I become more aware and that is what is the important thing.

Also, I am 14/14 days of tracking 100% honestly, accurately, and successfully. Only 76 more days to go! I am proud of that.

Big Red X- Weigh In #1

Okay, I've done 7 complete days of tracking and today was my first weigh in! I am down 5 pounds! I was at 241 now at 236, which leaves me just 6 lbs shy of my first real goal- to hit 230 lbs.

Pretty awesome!

My 90 days is up on July 13th (which is my brother in law's birthday, ironically)

Today I'm headed over to my mom's house while Brian works. So it should be a good day.

Hope everyone is having a great weekend- I know I am. Also, I'm selling my iPad 2 on eBay, so if you are interested or know anyone who is, here's the link: http://bit.ly/ipad264gbebay

Weigh In Week #6

Hard to believe it's been 6 weeks already. I am down 1 lb, which is pretty amazing considering I didn't track all week and it's that time. Ugh.

Last night was a rough night. I had terrible heart burn and couldn't get comfortable. I barely slept a wink. Eventually, it went away.

Down 4 pounds. Weee!


Not much else to report. Onward and downward.

Weigh In #2

I'm so so tired. I think I have a slight touch of insomnia. I haven't been able to sleep. Every time I try, I end up tossing and turning and inevitably, I get up because there is no point in laying awake. I'm cranky beyond all belief. I'm doing okay with the baby, Drake's crying doesn't bother me any more. I don't get upset when he cries. Babies cry.

Anyway, in my sleep-deprived stupor, I weighed in today. Wee, two weeks on WW and I'm already not tracking. I'm not making excuses: I just didn't track.

The official weight is 231. That makes it a loss of -4, and down 7 from the start. I am officially 7 lbs lighter! My pants from Old Navy are way too big now. I am going to wash them and give them away. Kind of sad, since I just bought them, but oh well- I can't be upset that I lost 7 lbs and will have to buy new clothes again. What kind of silly thing would that be! I'm 11 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight. So awesome.

I'm celebrating the small! I'm reveling in a 4 lb loss this week, a 7 lb cumulatively, and that I did not weigh myself once this week. I feel so much more in control.

This week's goals are simple: Drink more water and track at least 1 meal a day. I am going to try and track every bite, no matter what it is I am eating, but I am celebrating the small, and working toward small goals as well. The key to success is the little things. Small steps equal big rewards.

Once I hit 6 weeks postpartum, I might try and add in a little exercise. I want to do strength training and focus on that this time instead of so much cardio. Cardio was my downfall. I loved how I felt- a runner's high sort of thing- but it left me so hungry all the time. I would earn so many Points+ running on the elliptical/biking and then eat them all (and then some) and not track it. I think if I do a little weight lifting (just hand weights for now) I will be able to build up arm strength. Lugging a baby around is heavy and hard work. To be honest, Drake weighs more than my hand weights, so I can just lift him I guess!

So far, so good. I am going in 5 lb increments for goals, that way I can feel like I am making progress and not be faced with a huge, daunting number. In my weight tracker, WW set my first "goal" for 5% lost, which would put me at 226. That's 5 lbs away!

It was a great week, not just in regards to weight loss, but over all. I am aiming to make weight loss a priority, but not the main one in my life this time. I think having a more relaxed approach will probably help me in the long run, since I won't have all the self-inflicted pressure to lose x amount each week.

Weigh-In #1

My first week on Weight Watchers was interesting. It was only a half-week, really, starting on Wednesday and today is weigh in day.

Wednesday I ate too many points. Thursday I ate enough points, and Friday and Saturday, I did not eat all of my points.

Eating "meals" is really hard with the baby. What I like to call the Rule of Children comes into play every time. Every time I go to do something for myself (eat, in this case) Drake suddenly cries and needs me to attend to him. Of course this only happens when I am alone. I am getting used to it though, and I think I will need to become a grazer (a Point tracking one, anyway) for a few months.

I found the greatest success so far has been to set up my iPad to remind me to track my meals. If I am not near a computer or iPad, I do write it down on paper. Odd, I know, because I don't know the Points values for anything off the top of my head, but I do write down what I ate, then go back and add it in electronically when I can.

This time on Weight Watchers I am going to try to approach things differently. Instead of obsessing on the scale constantly- weighing in naked, first thing in the morning, or several times a day/week- I am only going to weigh in once on Sundays. I am taking a casual approach to the scale, and making sure to track like a fiend whenever possible.

That being said, I am proud to say I have lost some weight my first week! I officially weigh less than I did when I got married, and I am only 13 lbs away from losing the baby weight completely. It is nice to see that I am so close to being back to my pre-pregnancy weight.

My first "goal" is the standard 5% lost, which comes out to 11.9 lbs. I am down 3. Not too shabby of a start, eh?

Oh, and because Liz asked me where I did my shopping recently, it was at Old Navy online. They only carry their plus line on the website, and I found everything I have ordered from Old Navy, whether it was maternity or plus, to fit very well and to flatter both of my body shapes. I used a coupon code for 25% off, and since I spent over $50, I got free shipping too. Win.

Monday: Weigh in!

Well hello again friends? How have you been doing?

Me... I'm good. I'm down another bit of weight this week. I stepped on the scale at 218.8 this morning

That is awesome! Just 3.8 lbs til my first mini-goal weight (215) and then I am going to go in 5 lb increments until I hit 175 (my ultimate goal)

I have to say that things are going very well for me in the weight loss department. I am so pleased with my progress lately. I know 2 major factors are contributing to my weight loss and that is not eating my extra points (eating 'less') and running 3x a week (moving more)

Kayla kindly reminded me that her wedding is in 3 months. My goal so far has been to lose 3/4 of a lb each week (on average) until the wedding. Something small, and readily attainable. In 4 weeks, I lost an average of 2.2 lbs, which puts me at an average loss of .5 lbs a week. Which is great! I still maintain that any loss is better than a gain and those little numbers do add up. That being said, I did not hardly track at all last week even though I still ran, and still reported a loss, I am getting back on the tracking thing. 

If I am able to maintain the average loss of .75 lbs a week until Kayla's big day, that would put me somewhere in the neighborhood of ~209 lbs. That would put me literally *thisclose* to my 10% weight of 207, which is my next WW milestone. It's also pretty smack dab in the middle of my weight loss journey. I will be down 30 lbs from my highest, and with only 32 lbs to go until my official and serious goal of 175. I can taste victory! I am so ready to be done with the high 210s-low 220s. I am ready... for real this time.... to get back down to the lower 200s. I am ready to do this. 

Monday: Weigh In!

It's Monday, which is weigh in day! Hurray!

My new system is working like a charm for me! Here is what I did for the week! 

* I ran! Monday, Wednesday and Saturday, clocking in over 11 miles for the week! 

* I did P90X Arms & Shoulders for a whole hour

* I cooked a lot this week! We had stir fry, *burgers* and pancakes! Haha!

* I did P90X Ab Ripper X (and very nearly died, that one is super hard!)

What does that mean? It means I lost 1.8 lbs! Hurray! That's 3.8 lbs in 2 weeks. I like this pace very much, thank you!

That "Goal" line is getting closer....

I ate 27 weekly and earned 26 Activity

All in all, I feel pretty awesome. I have to do a run today, hopefully better than last time. See you all later.

PS I am awesome!

Weigh In: Experiment Results

Hey all! If you remember, last week, I decided to try out a little experiment on WW where I pretend I ate all of my activity points and weekly points to see if I could stay with in my daily limit. I am really pleased with my results.

There were a few days I dipped into them - especially last night- but I managed to only consume 13 Weekly and 0 Activity points, leaving me with 51 points I didn't touch!!!

It looks a little something like this .....

Booya!

What does that mean? How did I do on the scale???

I lost 2 lbs! 


That's right! Two whole pounds!!

I am so happy I could cry.

So I finally figured out what I have to do. Track every day & try not to eat my extra points.

It's really crazy how my week looked last week, I had 84 points on Monday and 42 on Friday, because I kept adding in my activity points as 'consumed' once I earned them.

I'm off for the next couple of days from work so I have lots of time on my hands (more so than usual) and will have to find a way to keep busy so I don't get bored.

On today's agenda?

-C25K Week 1: Day 2
-Tanning
-Cleaning (dishes and laundry- boo)

Weigh in- Week Whatever????

I have no idea what week it is, seriously!

But that doesn't matter any more.

Because? I lost. And I lost big time!! I am down 2.2 lbs from last week. (Remember, last week I gained nearly 5 lbs!) It's good to see that number go down again. Im at 220.4 (again!) and even that number was flickering between 220.2 and 220.4, but it finally settled on the latter. I'm not upset though! Quite the opposite, I am elated!!

Everybody say "HURRAY!!"

(no seriously, say hurray!)

I owe my major loss to tracking absolutely everything I put in my mouth the last week. I didn't 'work out' at all, unless you count walking the dog (I did) and cleaning (I did) I still didn't track that every day though.

So really, it is food. It's always been food. Damn you delicious food.

I went to the store last night and picked up some WW meals because, lets face it, I'm in love with them. Also, convenience- hello! I also got a Stouffer's lasagna for Brian too. He really wanted a filling meal (I guess tuna casserole isn't filling??) so I figured, hey, it will work. He really enjoyed it. And at 7 points a portion, I could enjoy it too, for the most part. Not as good as mine, but maybe I am biased?

Anyway here is what I had for breakfast:

New! Cinnamon Swirl French toast with turkey sausage!!

At 7 P+ its a nice hearty meal. I don't know about the rest of you, but I loves me some french toast.

Especially with sausage links. And syrup. Mmm. Syrup was included, so it made it even better.

For lunch? Salisbury steak with macaroni and cheese. (also 7 p+)

My goal for the month of March is to track EVERY day. I think that will be much tougher than Jillian's 30 Day Shred, or as my mom calls it, "power shred thing".

Busy day of errands ahead (thank god for WW!) so I will get going!

Don't forget to leave your HURRAYS in the comments so I can smile all day :)

Weigh in- A Loss!!

YES!! A small loss but I will take it!! I have my greedy little hands all over this loss.

Starting weight: 237.5
Last week: 218.4
This week: 218.0
Loss: .4 lbs
Total on WW: 12
Total to date: 19.5!!

Closely approaching that 20 lb mark again. Hello again old friend!!

While I didn't track every day, I tracked most days.

Plateau? 

So, it seems this whole "track it fool!" thing is working.

Gonna do it again this week and this time really keep control of my eating. It's hard since I have been eating so much more than I was, now it seems like I am depriving myself when I am really not.

We had a blizzard yesterday! 15 inches of snow and ice. Thankfully though, we didn't lose power. We lost internet for a few hours, which was annoying, but I just went back to bed. We had a level 1 snow emergency- for those of you who don't have snow or don't know, a level 1 means unless you are an emergency vehicle, you are forbidden to be on the road. If you're caught out (god only knows why you would want to be out!) you can get a ticket and your car impounded. A friend of ours who lives in another county is under a level Code Black which is the absolute worst road conditions.

Week 11 Weigh In

Weight Watchers is telling me its Wednesday, and you know what that means!! Weigh in!! YAY


I am down to 213.4 lbs. This is the littlest I have weighed in the last two years. It's a big accomplishment. It means I broke that plateau!! Some people lose weight before they hit a plateau, I hit a plateau before losing weight. I would gain and lose the same weight over and over again....

Not anymore. In the 11 weeks I have been on WW I have lost an average of 1.5 lbs a week.  To date, on program, I have lost 16.6 lbs! But what really matters is that I am sooo close to having lost 25 lbs from my all time highest weight of 237.5. I am at 24.1 lbs. Next week is my week. I feel it!!

Things that I didn't go crazy over this week:

-We ordered pizza. And breadsticks. I am awful about that stuff. In fact, I ate 42 points worth in one sitting. Truth be told I hadn't eaten all day, and I was pretty bummed out at the turn of events that day, so yes, I ate all of my daily points in pizza and only 8 weekly points, so it really wasn't that bad. Still, thats a lot of bad food to be eating in one go and did my tummy let me know it!!

-The knee is seriously impacting my day to day now. It hurts to pretty much do anything. Friday is my first appointment, so I am happy about that.

Non-Scale Changes:

I wouldn't really call these "victories" per se, but they are changes. 


-I have learned that pants do not sit right below your tits when you wear them. Some of them sit at your hips, others at your waist. This is as high as pants should go. I am notorious for Urkeling my pants because I want to cover up my belly flab- to make it look "smoother" if not a little smaller- and this is a hard habit to break. I found that "skinny" jeans work well for breaking this habit. I have to learn to wear my pants like a normal person. I have to own that I still have a gut. Why be ashamed of it any more? Its no different than wearing a girdle. I don't wear girdles. I own one, but I don't wear it.

-In line with the pants debacle, I have also noticed all of my work out clothes are too big. Apparently, if your ass falls out while you are doing the downward facing dog, your husband thinks you are trying to tempt him with a little bedroom action. You may get a surprise when you aren't looking...not that that is a bad thing!

-More ass news! I've never see anyone mention this, so I might as well. When you are bigger, there are certain activities that are more difficult to do. Namely, its hard to wipe thoroughly when you go to the bathroom. Reaching back there, you could pull a muscle. Or you might get toilet paper stuck in between your butt cheeks. Or when your ass itches, you have to dig your way through the flab first. It can also be difficult to wash, because its easy to not get all the soap out (which can make you itchy lol) I have noticed that I have not had one of those problems lately. In fact, last night, I was laying in bed scratching, and I was marveled at the size of my butt. It's so tiny!

-Ok, no more ass news! YAY! Another thing I have noticed though, is that I have a lot more moles than I thought I did. They are peeking out of fat folds, hiding under my shrinking boobs, and on my inner thighs. I freak out whenever I find one, asking Brian if they have always been there. He tells me they have, which is strange, because I don't remember them. I guess my range of motion is increasing a bit as well as my fat stores are having a liquidation sale, so I am just now seeing them.

-My boobs! They are shrinking!! When I was my heaviest I was a 44DD (or larger). My bust was 48 inches across its fullest point (my hips were 51) and I am now a 40DD (40") When I was thin, I was a 36-38DD so I am not too worried. Considering I have another 40ish pounds to lose until I get back to my hot weight, I will likely be a 38D. No more double. I've also lost an incredible 4.5" off my stubborn hips. I have no idea about my waist though. Apparently every time I measure it, I am picking a different spot, so my data is all jacked up. Its shrinking though. I can see my feet.


So as a wrap up, I've lost a total of 24 lbs (16.6 in 11 weeks!) I need new clothes, my ass doesn't itch as much, and my boobs are shrinking.

I'd say thats a good week!

Still working on the vlog. I've recruited Brian to "help me" (read as: "take over and do it") as I shot all the video, and I am tired of looking at it. It will be done in no time. I have to bounce, I have a test to study for today and I need all the time I can get. Have a good one!!

Weigh In Week Something or Other

Wednesday! Its Weigh In Day!

I weigh 214.4! In total, since the beginning of October, I have lost 15.6 lbs on Weight Watchers. I have also lost 23.1 pounds in total since I hit my highest weight of all time!!

YAY!! Is it just me or is that freaking fantastic?!?!

That's another 1.8 pounds down!! Soon I wont be a fat ass anymore. I will be a skinny bitch!! YAY!!


Can you tell I am excited? I sure can!

I am only a mere 7.4 pounds away from my 10% goal. So close, I can taste it. I will get there. I will not give up. I am also only a mere 14.4 pounds away from 200!!

I think this is week 10! Holy crap!! That means my average weight loss per week is a pound and a half. That is right smack dab in the middle of what they say it will be on Weight Watchers.

I don't know about you, but a pound and a half a week is awesome. I will gladly take any downward movement.

Post 497- Just a few more until my vlog!! I can't wait!! I will probably have to stop blogging for a day or so so I can get this done on the weekend. I really want to do my vlog right now, but unfortunately, I have to wait until payday. Keep your panties on, its coming soon. (LOL- sounds naughty)

Goals for the Week

Its post 496- That means the VLOG Spectacular will happen this weekend! I can't wait!

Lets post up some goals for the week- after all, goals that aren't written down are just wishes!

1.) We all know that I have issues with fruit. I'm not a fan. Particularly because of texture. But I posted this to my facebook/twitter friends "Now that fruit is 0 points on Weight Watchers, give me some to try!"

I got great responses from people, everything from pineapple to Clementines, to kiwi berries!

2.) Try out Zumba for the Kinect. I am going to rent it and see how I like it before I buy. With my knee being uncooperative though, I am going to have to take it easy.

3.) Try a new recipe. This can include my fruit of the week, but it can also be something different. The rule though: It must be something I have never made/had before.

This week is all about pushing myself out of my comfort zone.

What are some of your goals for the week? Is it something attainable or something a little too lofty?

I think the key to success is to push yourself a little bit each day/week/month to make yourself better. Whether its for weight loss or not, its hard to change if you remain the same.

I have some other goals I want to do as well but can't yet tackle them. They aren't really goals yet-- just wishes as I haven't written them down. I want to think about it a little more.

It is almost officially Wednesday- no weigh in tonight though, that's for tomorrow. Though we all know I lost right? Its a big loss again this week too. Very exciting. I am very happy and proud of myself. So much more than I ever thought I would be. I have to constantly reframe my thinking though. I catch myself saying "I've only lost 15 pounds since October" but I have to rephrase it! I dont mean to demean my weight loss. I guess its because I havent lost enough to be in Onederland that I feel that way. But, honestly, no matter who you are or what size you are 15 lbs is a nice chunk of change so far. I also think about the big picture- That I have lost 23 lbs so far since I got married.

And that, that makes it seem so much more... real.

I am constantly in awe of me.

Days Go By

Well it is officially Tuesday now. The day before the weigh. 

Not that that *really* matters, since I weigh myself every day. 

Today I forgot to weigh myself until after I ate breakfast and I was fully clothed. Normally I weigh myself naked. I am pretty sure this is normal. 

The number on the scale surprised me, because I weighed 215.6 with clothes on. Without clothes, I weighed 214.5

I don't know about you, but that number makes me happy for a few reasons. 1) It means that naked I actually weigh less 2) That I have lost all the weight that I had gained and then some, and most importantly, I think 3) I am down 23.0 lbs since my highest weight ever. EVER. I guess it snuck up on me. Its hard to believe I have lost over that much, even though it took TWO years.

I never gave up (completely)

I was (somewhat) determined to make a change

I kept trying (half assed at least)

What does 23 pounds mean?

It means that I have lost 37% of the weight I wanted.

It means that I am only 2 lbs away from losing 25 lbs- no small amount of weight!

It means that I am doing this. 

The last time that I weighed 214, I remember it. It was shortly after I was married- not more than two weeks, I would guess. I was taking a weight loss drug. An expensive one. $135 a month. It worked so well for a while, in as little as 6 weeks I lost 23 pounds. I was so proud of myself. I wasn't eating much at all, just once a day. I hadn't eaten anything at all the day I stepped on the scale

Shortly after, however, the pills quit working. The low carb lifestyle quit working, all I wanted was bread bread pasta bread and more pasta. I regained the weight. I was still depressed. I was not in my happy place. 

Now, however- Life is great, its wonderful, its grand. It's everything I remember it being. And I don't feel that way because I lost weight, I lost weight because I feel this way. I have found what makes me happy (working! who knew!) I have a great husband, a supportive family (my mom eats all the peanut butter m&ms so I don't have to!) a nice apartment, a quiet life, and of course, Weight Watchers. 

Its been nearly 17 months since I started this journey. That's an average of 510 days. I shudder to think of my weight if I had not gained control of it. I think I would weigh 510 pounds.

Weekly Weigh In: Week 10 Wednesday

(Post 489)

Yay its Weigh in Day! 

So time to hop on the scale and take my weight! 

Today's number is 216.2 which is down 1.8 from last week. I was down 3 but then got sick. Still, as I always say, any downward movement is good, so I am quite pleased with myself. Almost 2 lbs a week is a fantastic, safe rate of weight loss, and I am very happy. 

Today marks the first full week of PointsPlus on the new WW plan. I was mistaken earlier, I want to correct it: The new plan does not count calories into the points equation. It is only carbs, fat, fiber, and protein- which make up the total calorie count of any product Sorry if there was any confusion, that was a "my bad". 

I am on my lunch break, again. This time I am making dinner, I am going to have chicken and noodles again. I love chicken and noodles. It's actually very tasty and makes me feel better about life, the universe, everything. 

What else is going on? Hmm not a whole lot. I was very sick this week. Started off with a cold then sort of escalated to an almost-flu. I spent most of yesterday battling to not regurgitate. Thankfully I work at home, so I didn't have to go into the office or anything! Brian even told me "You look awful" haha I bet I do.

I have also put a little thought into what I am going to do for my 500th Vlog Spectacular (That's the working name; subject to change) Paula said she wanted to see me cook- Right back at'cha! 

What wonderful Christie-meal should I do? I don't really have the makings for lasagna, or enchiladas, or really anything at the moment. If I did do a cooking one, it would have to be after the 10th, when I get paid. (First paycheck!!) I'm trying to think of some of my other awesome meals that I make, and really all I can come up with is spaghetti (which you've seen) and lasagna (which you've mostly seen) as well as enchiladas (which are horribly Americanized- but still delicioso if I must say so myself) 

I could do my chicken cordon bleu, or my chicken spinach rollups. Those are the bomb (dot com) and they are gobbled up really really fast. Or I can do my baked mac and cheese, which is really really good as well. Not exactly pointsplus friendly, but then again, thats what your weekly is for! Save those points for my Vlog because you are going to go "Mmmm!" 

I can't wait- I already have some awesome ideas for editing it and some other surprises too. Now my chicken is probably almost done boiling, I have to add in my noodles. I am so hungry. 

Later, Gators!

Weight Watchers Weigh In Week 6

It's 6 weeks! Yay me!

I've been diligently following a program for 6 weeks that is a celebration in itself, I will tell you!

But onto more important things:


My weigh in!

I lost a total of 2.4 lbs this week bringing my total weight loss up to 15 lbs

Yay me!!

I have to say I can definitely tell. Not only are all my clothes falling off of me, but clothes that didn't fit are starting to, and my underwear is so big it falls off. I need to go and buy more panties!

I can't find my measuring tape or I would take my measurements for you all. I know I am definitely smaller in the stomach area. In fact, last night, Brian asked if I was wearing my tummy-shaper panties (read: girdle) and I said no, pulled up my shirt and danced around saying "It's all me baby!"

I ate 20 weekly points.
I earned 10 activity points from Dance Central.

I have hip bones again. I can feel them. I've been molesting them since they have made a reappearance. They seem to like it as they haven't run away yet.

So to recap this week: My skeletal structure does, in fact, exist. My stomach is shrinking, making my boobies and hips by comparison look HUGE, I lost 2.5 lbs this week and I am only 8 lbs away from 10% hit.

I have lost 22 lbs since my wedding day.

I think I can whip out this extra 8 lbs by the end of the month. I don't want to jinx myself so if it doesn't happen that is okay.

Anyway I just got some really good news so I will have to cut this short. Take care all!

Some Changes

I've noticed some changes in my body. Some non-scale victories, if you will. I've had plenty of scale victories, so I will share a few more.

-Underneath my enormous bosom, there was a layer of fat on top of my ribcage. I couldn't feel my ribs at all. Now I can and that layer of fat is slowly melting away. There is a little divot in the skin where my breastbone is. Exciting! I noticed but didn't say anything until one night when Brian mentioned it first. It's really neat when your partner tells you something they noticed.

-My stomach is obviously smaller. This is where I store all my fat (besides my naturally ample arse) so my boobs/hips are looking a lot bigger because I actually have a waist now. It is noticeable!

-Along the same lines as my stomach shrinking- when I suck my stomach in, it actually moves! Which means there is less fat in between the muscle and skin and therefore I can suck in now! Pretty sad when you can't tell when a person is sucking in :(

-My clothes are really getting too big now. I have to stop and constantly yank up my pants. I need to find my belts and see if they fit so I can keep my pants on! It's hard to look sexy dancing when you stop and pull up your pants Urkel style.

-I feel a lot sexier. I can't stop touching my curves, my legs, looking into the mirror for long periods of time. I've always been a little narcassistic but now it's just getting ridiculous. I can't wait until I am even thinner.

-I'll let you in on a little secret: I can't eat as much as I used to either! We went out to a pizza joint and got an x-large pizza, two salads (mine was huge) and an order of breadsticks. The reason we ordered so much food was we had to spend $35 to use this $25 gift certificate. I ate a third of my salad (grilled chicken, green onion, mushroom, cheddar cheese with low-fat ranch over iceberg lettuce - 6 pts) two breadsticks (4 pts each) and 1 piece of pizza and I was stuffed! (pizza- thin crust, pepperoni, mushroom, easy cheese, onion and green pepper- 6 pts)

I didn't eat anything else all night!

I did have a diet Pepsi and it tasted like heaven on earth. How am I going to go back to my tea/lemonade mix??

So there you go some NSVs to tide you over until tomorrows weigh in (which is awesome, I assure you)

Weigh in, Week 5

Today is Weight Watchers weigh in, week 5. Now we already discussed that I haven't been pre-tracking and I can tell this had a definite impact on my weight loss this week.

But I have vowed never to be "That Person"

That Person who is upset they only lost x amount in y time
That Person who is not celebrating their achievements


Any time the scale does not move is a victory.
Any time the scale moves only a little downward is a victory.


That being said: I was victorious! I lost .6 lbs this week, bringing my total to 12.6 lost in 5 weeks.
I know my weight loss will slow down a little, because I lost so much the first month. I know I can continue to pull the big numbers too.

I have started pre-tracking every little bite again. I am going to master this art. I will become the Artist Formerly Known As Stuffs Her Face

I bought a set of 3 lb hand weights because I am going to start exercising again and doing my videos. My 2 lbs-ers are too light now and the 5 lbs-ers are too heavy to do repetitions with (I tested them at the store! heh) They are also purple, which is nifty.

Goals for the week:

Exercise at least once with my new weights
Pretrack everything.
Drink more water.

Yay me! down another .6 lbs! I just keep getting smaller and smaller!