Baby Shower! & Ramblings

I had so much fun at our baby shower Saturday! We got lots and lots and lots of great gifts! Our nursery is very stuffed full of delightful gifts and I haven't had any motivation to start sorting it out. We also got some money, which we needed! I finished buying everything else we didn't get from our registry, so now we have everything! Hurray!!

The rest of the money (there was plenty left over) went straight into savings and now we have over half of our starter emergency fund, rent is paid, and we are starting on next month's expenses! A whole week early, but it is so much better than we have been doing.

This baby is a blessing in so many ways. We are finally getting our act together- paying bills on time/early, saving, and keeping up the house are just a few of the perks we didn't really think about before.

After a quick power nap (who knew showers could be so exhausting?) I got a bug up my butt about doing laundry. I've done 4 loads today and am slowly working my way through our mess of a walk in closet.

Pretty much this week is going to be about cleaning our room up so we can get the nursery sorted out and put everything together. I am very excited about how much wonderful stuff we have! I feel so blessed. I know it sounds cheesy (oh she's so hormonal, she's blessed about everything) but it really shows how much friends and family care. It's a scary transition to suddenly be expecting a child and not have any clue on how to do anything at all.

Enjoy the pictures! There aren't any of family/people in them, because I didn't take any. I'll have to wait until I get some from other family members.

The cake! the booties have a place to put a name and date on them hehe

The candy I made! Ducks for Drake!

The cute table

The present area- it filled up overflowing after I took the pic, hehe

Welcome baby!

Nursery is packed!

My goodies, my goodies!
A diaper genie (pail), diapers, blankets, stroller
clothes, ... you get the idea!

Car seat.

The bags/tub is full of baby clothes I have yet to sort

This high chair is super nice- it reclines in 3 different positions to accommodate baby in various stages

This 'bouncy' chair vibrates to simulate car rides! the screw drivers
are a nice touch as well. :P

Diaper bag stuffed full of goodies!
Pacifiers, wipes, wash cloths, diaper cream, etc

This mobile is so cute, and such a steal! :)
And yes, that is a Borderlands video game poster on the wall. 

Wednesday: C25K Week 1 Redux

So its another running day. I absolutely am looking forward to getting my run on.

I saw this fantastic quote on Twitter from Running Quotes that my friend Lindsay retweeted...

"If you run, you are a runner...There is no test to pass, no license to earn, no membership card to get. You just run" 


Which reaffirms exactly what I wrote about here- basically you are a runner if you are moving faster than usual.

All of this makes me feel good about myself. It isn't about races. It's not about pace, or distance, or miles (those things help!) it's about me. Doing this. For myself. Because I need to. Because I want to

And that is a very powerful feeling. To look at yourself in the mirror and say "You know what I want to do? I want to go running."

I've never said that out loud, ever. Until very recently. I mean- it's always been a secret dream of mine. Something I thought I could never do. The thought of running feels to me the same as the thought of flying. Oh how I would love to be able to fly! (wings, not airplanes) How exhilarating it must be. And that is how I felt about running for a long time. It was something impossible. It wasn't even a pipe dream. I just thought I never would be able to, due to the history with the ankle and all. 

Yes my ankle still aches. It will always ache. But it doesn't hurt any more. I am finally pushing past that and becoming myself again. I am a runner, dang it!!

So all of this rambling aside, you probably are wondering how I have done on C25K today, right? Well I haven't gone yet. Give me 45 minutes an hour. (Max had to go out, then he saw children and wanted to herd them and I wasn't having it, so he wasn't going potty because he didn't get his way, then we came in and he whined because there were still children to corral and he was upset with me so he sulked and went into his crate, but I was going to put him there anyway... so I win! HA!)

---~~-- C25K Stats --~~---

Time: 30 minutes

Distance: 3.67 miles 

Pace: 8:02 minutes/5k; 8:10 minutes/mile overall

Power song(s): Cascada- Evacuate the Dancefloor; Britney Spears- If U Seek Amy; Alkaline Trio- Every Thug Need a Lady; Cake- The Distance

Mood: Fantastic! Despite the fitness center being busy and full of big burly men (some of whom were sexy and some of whom were not) and me being the only girl there, I did not get off of the elliptical even though I wanted to run away. I made a promise to myself to do the full 30 minutes and I did it! I started feeling epic around minute 18 and that carried me through the rest of the way. 

One great thing (but also slightly annoying at the same time) was my pants kept falling down! They are officially too big. I am going to have to go find some new ones or learn how to take them in before Friday. 

I am sure I looked a loon holding my pants up while running. I had on my Spanx too, to help keep my butt from bouncing and I think it just made my pants fall off faster. Whoops!

I also couldnt find my normal shoes so I was wearing my shape ups which turned out to be a bad idea. My whole right foot fell asleep and then it started traveling up my leg. Usually just my toes fall asleep. Am I wearing the wrong kind of shoes? Am I wearing the wrong kind of socks? Am I doing something wrong.... running friends, help me out!

We'll Let You Know....

Interview didn't go so hot. "We'll let you know"

So I probably didn't get it.

Oh well. 

Still have lots of jobs I applied to and I am sure that I will have at least one more interview with another company and hopefully one with the company I really want. More than anything. I was talking to Brian last night about how badly I wanted this one job and I started crying.

It's for the library. I have wanted to be a librarian for *years* I was a student librarian and it was the best job, ever. I applied once before to the county library and I had a fantastic interview, they loved me! I was perfect for the job... but they interviewed another chick who had a degree and she got the job. Not 2 weeks later, they found out she had a felony she hadn't reported and fired her. Then they were going to call me... but the library went on a hiring freeze.

I got shafted.

I have been trying to get in to the library again ever since. I am not giving up. I passed my skills test 100% this time. (Last year, I failed miserably, and the year before that I got 85%) Something just clicked this time. This is where I am supposed to be. I KNOW IT.

I will not give up. I even considered going back to school for this but I am not going to spend lots of money unless I can help it and I do not need any sort of degree for this current position- but I have one! So that should help. I hope. 

Also I have family who work at the library. But its for a different branch and none of the family works at this branch I am applying to. 

I will keep praying. 

I am going to get in.

I can be very stubborn and bullheaded when I need to be and I think this is one of those times. I must not lose sight of my goal. If I don't get in this round, I'll apply to every single job they offer until I do get in and I can work my way up. 

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I stepped on the scale today and I am up 1.8 lbs (hey thats what I weighed last week hmm) I've done 'meh' on tracking and I have done awful on exercising. I have decided that today I am hitting the elliptical no matter what, even if it kills me. I was losing fantastic when I was tracking and when I was exercising. The running thing really has been helping me. I get less tired going up 2 flights of stairs now. I need it. 

I have been suffering horrible migraines for the last couple of days as well. I think it is from too much time in front of the computer and being tense in general. I am a little stressed out if I will get an interview (I would be devastated if I didn't) but I can't help it any. I have at least another week until I get a call from them.

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We have friends coming up on Saturday (tomorrow, egads!!) and I hope that my puppy is very well behaved. I know he is a good dog and tries really hard not to go nuts when we have friends over. He just really loves people. I have been working on it with him and he is getting so much better. Poor Alisha though, was attacked by a dog when she was 8 and is now nervous around big dogs. Luckily my little fur ball is not very big. He's half lab, but he is also half the size of his uncle Goober and cousin Riley. I am going to take him to PetSmart today and see if his nails need trimmed. The last thing that needs to happen to this poor lady is to get accidentally scratched while Max is trying to show her he knows how to shake with both hands. 

The house is getting a deep clean today and I am not looking forward to it, and looking forward to it simultaneously. I love a clean house but hate the actual work. If only I could hire a maid....Or teach max to wash dishes.

I have yammered and rambled on for far too long in this post. Thanks for listening. 

See you all on the flip side. 

Disney on Ice and Bridesmaids

Disney on ice was AMAZING! My friend Carissa and I were the only grown people there without children but HEY it was awesome!



Let's just say if you are a fan of the Little Mermaid you would have loved that segment. Actually all of the segments were really cool. Cinderella got half the show to herself, which was disappointing, and Beauty and the Beast got really shafted (my absolute favorite!) but it's ok. It was still awesome, I would go again tonight if I could, and yes I really am 5 years old.

I have no pictures of the actual show- I can't find my camera, and Carissa's wouldn't work properly, but we do have a few of ourselves and that is all that matters, right??
I'll get those uploaded when she gets around to it. She's a lot like me, so you will probably never see them... I am just keeping it real. I'm just warning you now though! We are majorly cheesing!!

I resisted the allure of cheese sauce too, I am so proud of myself. I had a walking taco instead (Fritos corn chips, beef, lettuce, cheese and taco sauce) which to me is probably more filling. Carissa got the cheese sauce and I tried so hard to ignore it! I am glad I did.

Then we went back to hers where we watched The Lion King with our men and Max got into some paint. They were painting the kitchen a yellowish brown mustard color and Max got a little excited hehe he's got some paint on his fur and he did get a little sick from it today but no worries- he's ok. He just licked it a little I think and decided it was bad, then he ate cat food, and we all know what happened the last time he ate cat food.

I was supposed to go to Spin today with my uncle's half sister but due to a sick dog, I rain-checked. She was nice enough to let me... Sorry! Next week, I promise. ;) (I'm still scared sh*tless but I will do it... I will!)

And tonight is bridesmaid dress trying on thing a ma jig

Kayla is in town this weekend and she is insistent on me trying on dresses that most likely will look awful on me....but its her special day so its okay. Im kind of excited/simultaneously loathing it, just because it will be fun to buy all of the dresses but I have absolutely no money whatsoever so I will have to wait anyway to order it...

I was thinking since I am going to be trying on dresses anyway that I should dress up what do you guys think? I mean at least do hair and make up right? But I kind of want to do the whole dress-tights-boots thing too. I think I will.


And then of course..... I had the most amazing idea ever! Are you ready for it??

I decided that since I cannot leave my weekly points alone, I was going to essentially 'spend' them all at the beginning of the week- in theory, not in practice. I am going to say on Monday I had all 49 points even though I really *won't*. If I see my 'savings bank' is empty, perhaps that will force me to eat only within my allowance.

Does that make sense? I am not really going to eat all the points on Monday- I am just going to say I did, that way I am not tempted to eat 10 weeklies every night. Its like real life! I only have this much 'money'- 35 points- to spend every day. (To be honest, I wish I had $35 to spend every day- that would be awesome!)

What do you think? I can do that with out depriving myself of anything. I can have a WW dessert every day if I wanted. I'm not worried about that. I am worried about getting out of control and maybe seeing that my 'savings bank' is empty, I won't be tempted to dip into it. Unlike real life where I have no savings at all.

Also- I know why I have been eating like a pig and just feeling super blah, and guilty over everything! Hello, Aunt Flow! I always forget. I am going to make a note on my calender right now, that in 28 days, I will be like this again. I might go 21 days out so I can see- "Oh yeah, my crazy week is here" Now that I have started, things will go back to normal emotionally and hopefully I wont be dipping into the jar of peanut butter again!

Never Give Up

Never give in.
Finish what you started.

Basically, tell your inner devil to shut the f^&@k up.

I went on a bike ride today, after going to Curves (second day in a row, and second time this week)

I had a Frosty from Wendys (small) and a grilled chicken sandwich, for a total of 600 calories (my breakfast and lunch, since I didnt eat before Curves.)

I was in the fat burning zone the whole time in Curves, but I still havent bought the Curvesmart tag. I think once we can go three times a week then I will buy it. Also having money helps.

Secondly, today was so nice. It was forecast to rain today, but luckily the skies are blue blue blue. It is also humid humid humid. We have had a lot of rain recently, which was causing it to be humid.

We rode about an hour, maybe 45 minutes. I burned 396 calories (bye bye Frosty)
I am exhausted. I need a nap.

Friday we are going to Curves even though I said we would go tomorrow, truth of the matter is, I would go tomorrow anyway, but Friday I am in town for an errand, so it only makes sense to squeeze in my workout at that point.

Also we have a friend coming over so the rest of today (post nap, of course) and tomorrow will be spent scrubb-a-dubb-dubbing