What He Wanted

Brian's got a little mini-vacation going on right now and today he wanted me to make him a big ol' breakfast. He wanted (turkey) bacon, eggs, and pancakes. Yes, I said "and pancakes"


I asked him if he was serious, after all that is a lot of food. He reiterated. "I want 2 slices of bacon, three eggs, and 5 pancakes."


Blink blink.

Okay then.

So I hop into the kitchen and I make the bacon, I stir the pancake batter and I decide that he really does not need 3 eggs or 5 pancakes. I gave him 2 eggs and 3 pancakes (which is actually a serving! but don't tell him that haha) and he had 2 slices of t-bacon. Which I burnt, trying to get everything else taken care of but that's alright. He said it was really good any way and he ate it all. Meanwhile, I had 3 slices of t-bacon (2 points) 1 whole egg, scrambled (2 points) 1/4 c. fat free shredded cheddar cheese (1 point) and a flour tortilla (3 points) to make a breakfast wrap. I'm sad that I was not able to get my Mission low carb tortillas (Brian said they were too expensive- which they are! $4.50 for 10, or $2 for 8 of the store brand)

I ask him if he wants toast as I am finishing up his meal, being a smart ass. Kind of like, geeze, you really need ALL of this food? And he pauses and thinks for a moment as if he is seriously considering whether or not he actually needs toast on top of all this, and then says "nah." I told him I was proud of him for not going full on glutton for me, just moderate glutton! (Again, being a smart ass)

I honestly love cooking for my husband and I only give him a hard time about how much he eats but really, he only eats one meal a day. I love making him a big meal it makes me feel like a real wife. I don't think he's a fat ass or anything (though to be honest, there is no way in hell I could eat all of that!)

He is all full and happy now and playing some video games. It's nice to have him home.

Thoughts on Different Eating Lifestyles

I have been giving some thought to where I want to be eating wise, next year. I know there are as many eating lifestyles as there are people in the world, so I thought I would ask some of you what your thoughts were, what you liked to eat, what you had struggled with embracing, etc.

For instance, theoretically, if I choose to embrace vegetarianism/veganism, I could do so. I like meat a little too much though and don't know if I would be willing to give that up

Then there is the organic/whole foods approach to eating, which is the most appealing to me at the moment. I love to cook so the thought of taking whole ingredients and turning it into delicious home made recipes is something very appealing to me. However- whole foods require a lot of fruits/veggies and that is something I definitely struggle with. How do you go about learning to like fruits and veggies? Aside from obliterating them in Magic Bullets and then mixing them with something tasty.

There is the Paleo diet, which my brother in law was telling me about. That is the whole "hunter/gatherer" lifestyle we used to do as a race eons ago (haha eons)

There is low carb/Medifast- which I could not do. I did Kimkins low carb and lost a bunch of weight on it then gained it all back and then some when I ate carbs again. I don't think I would do Medifast either, simply because it is so expensive.

The same thing goes for the Jenny Craig/Nutrisystem. Its nice and convenient, but too expensive.

Even more expensive than the WW meals.

I haven't really done a lot of research into these different lifestyles (aside from JC/Nutrisystem/low carb) and I am looking for more reading materials, etc. I am not keen on reading about how they torture our farm animals etc, but if you have anything else you would like to recommend, I am all ears for it. I really need help from former veggie haters to veggie lovers, and the same from fruit haters turned fruit lovers. This is what I struggle with the most. Short of just buying all fruits/veggies and buying nothing else (no meat, no bread, no pasta, no cheese...) I don't know what to do. I'd lose a lot of weight that week, that is for sure lol

One or the Other

It seems like I can't do two things at once. Which is not really a surprise, I'm not much of a multi-tasker. If you can believe it, I have trouble walking and chewing gum at the same time, though to be honest, I really just have trouble walking. Curse you, clumsiness!

I have noticed something though, as I track my food and exercise, there is a disturbing trend. You see, I either eat really well, stay under my calories for the day... OR.... I exercise but go over my calories. I can't seem to do both. If I exercise a lot and create a deficit, I spend the rest of the day freaking out about how much hungrier I seem to be. And I can't stop eating. While its not like I go to a buffet and eat 2 of every item, I still can't stop at 1500 calories. For instance, say I ride my bike for 20 minutes and burn 250 calories. I would eat all of those 250 calories back later, which doesnt help me loose weight.

It's frustrating because I want to lose weight, I know I can, but it seems like I haven't gotten anywhere. I keep gaining/losing the same 10 lbs over and over again. I feel like quitting. It sucks to even admit that I am a quitter, but that's how I feel. I have to acknowledge that feeling.

But don't worry, I won't quit.

As I step on the scale and notice the weight staying stubbornly in the 220s, I wonder if there is something wrong with me. Not so much as in I am defective, but maybe I'm approaching this wrong? Part of me wants a quick-fix now. And believe me, I have that option available to me. My insurance covers weight loss surgery. So there is always that route. But it feels like I would be cheating. Besides I've done surgery and it doesn't cure anything ever. Ask my ankle! It helps but you are not cured or fixed or 100% ever again. It's invasive, and there are lots of medications involved. And lets not forget the pain.

No, surgery isn't an option. It's appealing, but only in that daydream sort of way, where you think its all rainbows and butterflies and frolicking through the fields, but you forget that before all of that it's all thunderstorms and lightning, sobbing alone in the dark while you pity yourself and just beg for it all to be over.

I had a point and then I lost it. Wait, there it is. One or the Other. Catchy title.

I'm having trouble multi-tasking. I can't seem to do both exercise and eating right. And that is what is killing me. Stalling me. Making me miserable.