Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Surprise, Surprise!

Meetings seem to work! I went for my first weigh in at meetings today, and I lost 1.6 lbs! Woohoo! I also got a "Bravo!" sticker for having my first loss since who knows when. It feels good to be moving in the right direction again!


The cool thing about being a Monthly Subscriber? The fact that it updates my eTools automatically with my weigh in! Yay! That is a pleasant surprise.

Also as I was leaving, a member came up to me and said that she was so glad I started coming to meetings because I, and I quote, "add a lot of life to them" which made my day. I told her thank you so much for saying that, because I needed to hear something positive today. My friends who know me in real life know that I easily add life to any gathering because I am LOUD. My first meeting, I sat in the back and basically shouted my opinions. Hahaha.

Other WWers: where do you put your stickers? I couldn't think of anywhere to put mine, except in my weight record. Is that a good place? Should I get a special sticker booklet? Or put it on my motivation wall? Hmmm

I also went to the gym tonight- shock. I made a promise and a goal this week to go to the gym 3 times. All three times I would do strength training, and 2 of the 3 times I would do cardio. I just did strength training tonight and a bit of tanning and it was good. I enjoyed it. I was pleasantly sweaty. I think I enjoy lifting weights because I can see improvements quicker. I can either do more reps or lift more weight and it is stimulating.

I don't mind cardio; it's easy to just hop on the elliptical, crank up the resistance and my music and zone out. Sometimes I think up funny little stories and type them in my phone; other times I think about Benedict Cumberbatch. Trust me, not all my heavy breathing is due to being out of breath! That man's voice is sex covered in chocolate and marshmallows.

I just imagine him cheering me on. Or whispering in my ear.
Or whispering between my thighs.

Once I am at the gym, I find that I thoroughly enjoy it. It's weird because I am super lazy. But get me out the door and I will work hard at the gym. It's just going that is the trouble.

Anyway, I had a really rough weekend and start to my week. First, Loki got into something and spent the entire weekend kitty-barfing and kitty-pooping all over the apartment. He wouldn't eat or drink water on Saturday and on Sunday he just laid next to the water bowl and didn't move all day. His episodes were so uhm ... persistent? ... that we had to give him a bath and wash off his butt. Yeaaaah that was fun. Then he went into his litterbox with still wet fur, and got litter stuck to his fur. So I am going to have to cut it out. The little buttmunch is better now, though.

Drake has decided naps are for chumps and sleeping is for pussies, because he has given up sleep. It's terrible. He only sleeps an hour or two at a time at night, and only about 30-45 minutes during the day. I have no clue what is going on. A growth spurt? Teething? Maybe he's just an asshole? I don't know, but it has been a LONG LONG few days. Last night he was up every other hour. And I spent a good portion of the night and early morning on the living room floor while he watched Pocoyo until my eyes & ears bled.It was grueling.

Yep. That was my week. How was yours?

Friday, July 19, 2013

A Picture May Say 1,000 Words

But this one of me appears to be screaming them instead.

This is the only picture that came out of the trip my husband and I took to go to Chicago.  There I am, on the left, Brian, and his brother Justin and his girlfriend Sabina. 

I am absolutely miserable in this picture. I feel fat, bloated, gross, disgusting, ugly, embarrassed, ashamed, guilty. Just to name a few. 

Upon some self-reflection, I did a brave thing and signed up for Weight Watchers meetings as well as the online. So I have both of them now, for $43/month. I think it was worth it. The meeting was packed, full of different types of people, both women and men, young and elderly, bigger and smaller. It was great!

I have my official weigh in from Wednesday: 244.2 lbs. Here's to new beginnings.