mmm fried... goodies....

Yesterday was a very dangerous day.
Diet wise.

I went to visit me mam and pappy! Hubby had a boys night.

Gramma wanted to go see Alice in Wonderland, so I tagged along.
We got a jumbo extra large popcorn and covered it--nay--drowned it in melted butter sauce stuff then dumped a mountain of salt on it. Light shake to stir.
Triple bucket size soda. I got a Cherry Coke. Not a diet cherry.

I scarfed the entire top third of the bucket. Gramma had two handfuls. LOL
I downed my drink.

then I went back to Ma's. Make dinner she said. We will have pork chops!
I decide, for whatever reason, to fry them and then bake them in a barbecue sauce. I made mac and cheese and tiny biscuits too.

I ate one chop, a spoonful of mac, and a biscuit. I gave the other to the dog. Anyway. I am sure I ate WELL over my allotted calories for the day. I didn't even try and track that. I wasn't sure how much popcorn I ate. 15 thousand handfuls? I don't know how many calories are in a fried bbq pork chop. I lie, it was actually pork LOIN sliced into chops, which means, it was MUCH much better than a silly old chop.

Its no surprise really then, that today I am sick to my stomach. I have been spending lots of quality time alone in the bathroom. I also hopped on the scale this morning and noticed I had gained .5 lb! GAINED! In one day! I GAINED! UGHHHHH

Today, back on program. I had Hamburger Helper today. 2 servings. 620 calories. A yoplait yogurt. 110 calories.

Its 8 pm and I still have about half my calories.

I watched Biggest Loser with my mom. Well, sort of. We sit there and chat on msn while its on lol.
I was so surprised that the first day they were at the ranch they did 26.2 miles on a bike. at 500 lbs. TWENTY SIX POINT TWO miles their FIRST DAY! I was bragging about my 4.5 LOL

This sort of opened my eyes. If those pudge buckets can ride 26.2 miles their first day at fat camp, then I should be able to, too. Right? Right. I weigh less than they did. Why shouldnt I be able to?

Also: Lance's wife is a vindictive bitch. Making him eat those cupcakes. WTF? Where's the support? Im glad he lost. What goes around, comes around. Your greedy ass wife got you booted from the show. LOL

I'm wondering if I am not exercising enough? I mean... I am not losing lots of pounds really, but inches. Could it be that I am not pushing myself hard enough? Most likely. I think I am afraid to push myself because the next time, the bar is set that much higher and I secretly worry I will fail. That I can't push it up again.

This attitude has to stop because it's not helping me any. If I am afraid to push the bar then where does that leave me? Fat.

Let's stop making excuses Christie. Let's starting making changes. If they can do it, I can do it. If they can't do it, fuck it, I'm doing it anyway and bragging all about it.