So yesterday, I was trying to convince myself that it was alright to see the numbers 240 staring at me on the scale. I looked at my pictures before and now... and I was feeling okay. I tried to talk myself out of feeling bummed and I said, out loud, to the mirror: "At least you haven't split your pants open!" Because that did indeed happen to me one time when I was out to dinner with my girl friends.
I laughed and went about my day, thinking of how clever I was. I was wearing the only pair of maternity pants that I have that fit, a pair of khakis. I was feeling pretty sexy all day too... until I went to the bathroom about 10 pm and had noticed I ripped my pants all down the front.
Yes, the whole crotch had come unstitched. Thankfully I hadn't been out in public when it happens, but it just goes to show the universe has an evil sense of humor.
I didn't get emotional (although I have a strong craving for a shake right now) and I didn't even let it get me down much.... my new clothes are arriving tomorrow.
Brian and I went for a walk for 30 minutes with Max today. It was a nice walk and very tiring. I definitely will sleep well tonight. I have also been off soda for 2 days and only got a minor headache today. I've been drinking lots of water. I drank 2 gallons in 2 days. I have been eating fruit, cooking and eating at home, and talking myself out of chocolate milk shakes and bags of Halloween candy.
I'm doing what's right by my body and my baby, even if it feels like I am taking 1 step forward 5 steps backwards. Brian assures me I don't look like I used to. He keeps telling me that I am "in a unique situation" meaning I can't hold myself to my previous standards (pfffft... what standards?)
Exciting news- I have my baby book now! It's a cute Pooh one and I can't wait to fill it up. It has so many places for pictures and writing. Aww. I started tearing up while looking at it. We also have a baby hamper and a few extra bottles. I returned the breast milk storage kit I got, since it turns out it needs a special bottle system for that (uh, no thanks) and I got some thank you cards which I am going to be sending out today. I am also going to scan and upload my baby shower pics to my computer and send copies to my Granny in TN because she wanted me to send her some.
Tomorrow I am officially in the third trimester- 28 weeks. Wow. Hard to believe that I am so far along already. Today, Drake was kicking me and my whole belly started to shake. I had my laptop on my belly (because I can balance it there!) and it started jumping. What a little kicker I have. Each day we get baby stuff, Brian gets more and more excited. I can tell because he tells me. Also I catch him in the nursery playing with the swing or trying on the baby carrier. Any babies we see we both break out in awws and giggles.
I think this month with my allowance, I am going to get a mani and pedi. It's been a while since I have had a mani and even longer since I have had a pedi and if there is one thing I need right now, it's some pretty polish and a nice leg massage.
Weird news- I am producing colostrum aka "first milk". For a while I didn't know whether it was colostrum or some oil to lubricate and prepare for breast feeding but after a little research, yep, I'm producing. Heavily. I don't think I will have a supply problem.