I went running today. Just like I said I would. Aren't you impressed? I know I sure as heck am. I woke up early, like I mentioned, at 10am to be exact, and I decided, you know what? I'm going to go run today. Just like I said I would.
So I strap on my Shape-ups and I walk down to the office/fitness center. I had grabbed my check for rent, but they werent in the office. Oh well. I head down to the fitness center and thankfully, it's empty. I get on the elliptical and I tell myself "Ten minutes. You did 7 last time. If you can do 7, you can do 10. That's all I am asking."
It was rough getting started, I was thinking "GAWD this is going to take FOREVER!" I started running while I searched through my iPhone for some good tunes. Skip, skip, skip. This one is too slow this one makes me sad why is that even on here I don't like techno good lord where is all my music HELLO what am I supposed to listen to as I torture myself?
I finally find a couple songs I like, one of them being Paparazzi by Lady Gaga, and before I knew it, I was at 5 minutes. I look at my distance.
3/4 of a mile. Can I do it? I wonder. I push myself harder. Can I make a mile in under 7 minutes on my second run ever? I grin in between bouts of panting. I bet I can. I push even harder. My heart rate is climbing through the roof. 195 beats per minute. Screw it. It's either hit the mile marker or pass out, I don't care. I keep running. I take a swig of water. I can do this. I will do this.
Seven minutes is rolling around, its 6:45 it's coming up! I'm at .98 miles. I jeep going, not blinking, my eyes never leaving that display. 7:00 hits and I am at .99 miles. Bummer. 7:04 and it ticks over to a mile. I don't care that I am 4 seconds over; I still beat my last mile time by 16 seconds. I am so pleased and exhausted. I want to quit. I slow down a little, let my heart beat go down and take a swig of water. I think "that's good enough. I beat my old time."
Then I realize I am doing exactly what I always do. I am giving up half way. It's not that I can't do it, its that I choose not to. I feel like I've accomplished something meaningful, so I let my personal goals slide. I wanted to run ten minutes, but I beat my time record, so I can stop, right?
This time, it was WRONG. No! You will run ten minutes whether you like it or not, and you will be damned proud of yourself for doing it! I kept yelling at myself mentally. It's only 10 f$cking minutes, you can't give me TEN minutes of your time? What would you rather do with it? Sleep? Eat?
That's right fattie, that's what you want to do. Eat. Boohoo, poor little fattie can't eat for ten minutes while she tries to avoid diabetes. (I was pretty harsh on myself. I kept thinking Jillian Michaels, mixed with my mom, mixed with that kid from the Christmas Story who had yellow eyes. He had yellow eyes!) I wanted to give up, but I kept telling myself that the only person who can make me do it is me. I have to want it. I can do this. I will never, ever give up. Ever. I am stronger than I know I am. And apparently faster too!
Before I knew it, the ten minutes were up and I had run 1.4 miles in total. I wanted to take a pic of my awesomeness, but if you don't keep moving, the display blanks out, and I couldnt get a clear pic while I was in motion. So you will just have to take it on faith.
I may be a fattie but I sure can move when I want to!
Aww I remembered to take one of me smiling. Aren't I cute?
I had to run to the store today to buy yarn for my gift I am making, they didn't have the color that I wanted but they had another color that was equally as pretty, so I bought 3 balls of that, a new crochet hook, and some things for Hubby's lunch next week, before I forgot. Then I walked past the workout clothes. Oooh. I wanted new workout clothes.
They were on sale! Even better!
The shirt was $5 from $7 and the pants were $8 from $11. I wanted to buy another set, but figured that one was good for now.
Yeah my room is a mess. It's actually a lot cleaner than it was haha :(
I started on my wrap, the yarn is sooo soft. It's Vanna's Choice from Lion brand yarn (yeah, as in Vanna White, she crochets!) and I am already on row 10 of 23. It's a really easy pattern, but it just takes a bit of time to do. In fact, the pattern is so simple at one point it says "go back and repeat steps 4-9 twice" and that is where I am now. I probably will get it done by the end of the weekend, even with how busy I will be.
Tomorrow I am going to run 11 minutes. If I can do 10, I can do 11. I am going to keep working my way up. I still have to do 30 Day Shred today, but I will do that after the hubster gets home. He likes to keep me accountable hehe.