If you know anything about me, which you might, you would know that I am extremely apprehensive. I am of a nervous disposition. I would use smelling salts and a feather fan to keep myself from fainting if not for modern medicine.
I am constantly worried about everything. All the time. A typical day is like this "should i get dressed to go get the mail how dressy should i be what if this doesnt match who will see me anyway they all think im weird i dont know why i bother i am so whale like anyway they will all point and laugh i dont know what to do i want to go do this but that involves going out side they must think i am a vampire or a hermit i should just go back to bed"
And I don't get the mail.
However, you can clearly see that this is not a healthy way to be. I am in fact, paranoid of everyone. I hate to admit it, but I just don't like people and I can see myself easily becoming the crazy cat lady (hey I already have two furry little monsters, one who I want to train to walk on a leash...)
But I decided to try something for a few weeks. I like to call it "whats the worst that can happen?"
We went to the store last night and I picked up some hair dye. I looked at various shades of blonde. I am a natural brunette, and spent a great deal of my life so far being blonde. I loved it, but thought it was time for a change, and did a few different shades of red and brown, and while I liked it, I missed being blonde. I went back to blonde about 8 weeks ago, and I love it. It was time to touch up so I got another shade, golden blonde.
I slapped it on my head and waited 25 minutes. I checked it. Nope, still red. Waited another ten minutes. I looked at my head. Well it's turned.......red. Dark red. Oh well, I think. Its not blonde, but its a different color. What's the worst that can happen? It turns green and I have to stay inside for a few days until I can dye it back? Um hello, Im a hermit.
I rinse it and its still red, except my roots. My roots are bleach blonde. I suppose that comes from following the instructions of applying it to your roots first. I condition it. I would have blow dried it, but it's midnight and my neighbors wouldnt appreciate that, so I just towel dry it and hope for the best.
I check every ten minutes to see if it looks any better and it actually turned out really great. Its a golden blonde so it has very faint undertones of red in it. I like it, but next time I am going to do a different, brighter, lighter blonde. I am tired of red.
I may wait a few days and buy a blonde highlighting kit again and do a frosted effect.
Oh, I went to Fashion Bug to pick up my purchases and I really did enjoy how easy it was and what a great deal I got. I bought two shirts on line, for 7.25 on clearance. They were originally $15 each. So hows that for a deal?
I have decided that while I am fat, I am going to look my best and feel my best if I buy clothes I like (I never shopped for fashionable plus clothes, just Walmart kind) and I am going to be the hair color I like. I am going to wear my contacts, do my make up and try and do one thing a day that puts me outside my comfort zone. Because being comfy is what got me fat.
I promise to post a pic of my new hair after I've got it styled and everything. Right now it's in the post-dye state, where its so ridiculously shiny and smooth it cant hold a hair tie. I need to sleep on it or something to grease it up a bit. :)
Now, if you will excuse me, I have to get back to my Lite-Brite app on my iPhone.
Remember- Love yourself, because if you can't who the hell could?