Thursday, March 10, 2011

Hello, My Name is Christie

Hello, my name is Christie, and I am recovering from a binge last night.

I have no idea how many points/calories I had but to be honest, it was a lotttt.

I tracked all of my 35 dailies and then I just... stopped tracking but kept on eating.

Some of the highlights:

-Chicken alfredo
-Pretzel sticks and peanut butter
-More chicken
-Spoonfuls of peanut butter as I ran out of pretzels
-Jello (sugar free of course- got to keep my trim figure!)
-Cereal
-Lots of coffee with lots of chocolate creamer which I realized was actually Swiss Miss hot chocolate in a different container.


I have no idea why I did that to myself. But the sad thing? I did not even get disgustingly full like I used to. I ate way more than usual and somehow, it wasn't enough.

I'm pretty sure its part stress, part being upset with my weigh in. So I fix that by eating a bunch? Shh I know my logic has more holes in it than swiss cheese.

Today is a better day. A much better day. I have Disney on Ice tonight to go to. I have my Princess Headband on already. I am dressed. I have done my hair. I may even do make up too.

I had 3/4 cup of cereal and 1/2 cup of milk, plus my regular coffee, with measured ingredients today. I've had 10 points for breakfast. I am ok with that.

I stepped on the scale today and shock! I am up 2 lbs again. I know that I did not eat an additional 2 lbs of food. It is 98% likely that I am retaining water since I ate all salt last night. I mean, peanut butter and pretzels? Come on.

Being accountable and admitting my mistakes. Just another reason being grown up sucks lol :) On the agenda? Lots of water.

5 comments:

  1. It happens. Just learn from it and move on. Good luck with the rest of the week :)

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  2. Girl, we have all been there. Well, I have. You're right - the next day is totally different. It happens and we just move forward and learn from the past. :)

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  3. I know how you feel!! I'm sorry, binge sucks and they happen. Use the anger or frustration to tackle some intense workouts and you'll bounce back in no time :]

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  4. Emotional eating is TOUGH, but I bet you can learn a lot from this. In looking back, could you have called a friend when you realized things were getting out of control?

    When I feel that way, I also try to change my venue (and NOT to a restruant, but that's more because I'm frugal). Is there a bookstore nearby you can browse to distract yourself if you can't get your emotional head on track w/ your logical one?

    I have a NASTY "salty/sweet" tooth during my monthly. Sometimes the craving is SO strong, and I never get full! If I eat something salty, I want something sweet. And I can eat either until the cows come home.

    Losing weight is as much of a head game as it is a body game. Once you figure out those switches in your head, your body follow's suit! Having a good friend who can talk with you and help you through the self-destructive stuff can be invaluable! :)

    Kudos for admitting!

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