But then I look back at these pictures and I finally am seeing that I am a completely different person than I used to be.
Here I am in August 2006- 198 lbs. I felt so fat and gross here. Now I think I look pretty damn good. I also have a perm (ugh) which you can see peeking out from under the hat.
That's my best friend Kayla, who is getting married in July. We should wear these dresses!
Fast forward to December 2008- The night I graduated college.
I was so bent on making sure my engagement ring was showing. I don't think any one is going to notice it... I'm so round and blimpish here. I cry a little when I look at this picture.
Fast forward to May 2009- The cake cutting. Here I am, stuffed into size 16 jeans. They don't fit me now, so I don't know how I fit in them that day. I guess desperation? I wasn't fooling anyone that day except myself.
|Some serious muffin top going on!|
And another pic of the wedding day. When Brian saw this pic, he said "Damn! I was fat too!"
Here I am over 2 years from my highest weight in 2008/2009 and still going strong despite all the set backs. I think I am looking pretty damn good. And while the scale is only showing 18.5 lbs lost, my body my smile my attitude is showing a totally different picture.
|In case you're wondering- size 16 dress pants.|
And that one is worth 1000 words.