Today has been an incredibly stressful day. The bills for the birth have started to pour in, and after insurance, we owe about $24,000
Yes, 24 THOUSAND dollars. It's because I had to have a c-section, and all of our insurance coverage was used up on the stupid inductions that didn't work. So I am a little upset about all of this.
I'm currently going through all of our debts that we owe- the car, the credit cards, the medical bills, the student loans. Every last penny.
I am desperately in need of another job. I am applying to everything in hopes that I get something. Anything. I'd sell one of my kidneys right now if it paid off a debt.
So I took a Xanax. I am doing alright now, it's kicked in and the feeling of hopelessness has lessened. I know I will get through this. Everyone has lots of debt. I can get it under control. I've gone from "victim" mode to "fighter" mode now and you better believe I will come out swinging. I always do and I always manage.
I also haven't had any sleep Drake has decided that today, eh, he's not going to sleep. Which is fine. It's okay. It doesn't bother me.
Pumping is working again. I started taking fenugreek last night. I am taking 6- 610 mg pills a day and I went from pumping .25 ounces every hour to pumping 1 ounce every hour, so it IS working. I should be amplifying production to maximum in another 48 hours. That will cut $50 out of the budget. Maybe I will even make enough of a surplus that I can sell it. It's legal to sell and it sells pretty well actually, the going rate is somewhere around $1.50/ounce.
I also need a shower.
It's just not my day. But I am handling it rather well, thanks to my buddies Xanax and diet Dew. Also Brian helps a lot, he always brings me back from the edge of panic.
Have a good weekend, friends. Hope that none of you open any terrifying bills today.