Saturday, February 4, 2012

Thoughts

I've been very sleep deprived the last couple of days. Not because the baby isn't sleeping well, but because I am getting used to less sleep, so it's harder for me to fall asleep, if that makes any sense. Once I am asleep though, it's that great deep sleep, where time flies by so quickly and dreams don't happen.

I haven't tracked a bite since Monday or Tuesday. We haven't ate out much though, so that's great. I know it's all food I've got at home that I have been eating. I've done my best to stay off the scale until tomorrow to see what it says.

One thing I noticed, quick foods are definitely appreciated. Anything that can be eaten with one hand, little hassle, and can be dropped at a moment's notice and come back to later... perfect! Granola and cereal bars are great for this. Cereal itself, not so much. Big meals, again, not so much. Half-sandwiches are good. Popcorn, peanuts, trail mix. Consequently, snack foods are in short supply here because they do not last very long!

I've been having some trouble organizing my thoughts into coherent sentences and trying to convey what I am thinking and feeling... probably because writing about exhaustion is exhausting and not very interesting to read. I don't really have anything exciting to talk about (unless you count the many versions of poopy diapers I get). I could gush about the baby, but I don't really have anything new or exciting to talk about. He grows every day and his personality is starting to blossom. I know I am going to be very busy once he can start crawling (which will probably be in a month or two, according to the pediatrician) but I am hoping that I also have time to take more interesting pictures. The only time I can really take pictures is when he is sleeping and that gets boring quickly.

I still find it hard to believe I've been a mom for over 4 weeks now. I still feel like it's all a dream really, and that this little baby isn't really mine... I think it's because of his manner in getting brought into the world that really makes it seem unreal. But I love him, he is so special and sweet. I adore being a mom, which is something I never thought I'd say. Although, to be honest, I feel a little more tied down. Now it's almost impossible to pick up and go anywhere (to the store, let alone on a spontaneous trip) Actually, I feel REALLY stuck at home. Even when Brian is home, I can't go anywhere. I don't know how to drive a stick yet. I feel like I am starting to get a little twitchy in that regard. I can't wait until Drake is a little older so I feel more comfortable moving him in and out of the house. We can go on walks. It will be nice.

Keep your fingers crossed for us- Brian got word that the official transfer date is February 21st! He will have a much shorter drive to work and he will be so much closer to home. We are really excited about this. Also, since we got the manual, the money he gets from the company for gas has actually been too much! He is able to fill up his gas tank and still have money left over, which never happened before. I love that. We might - gasp!- make a profit on gas money.

We got our state tax refund today- that was interesting. I wasn't expecting it for another 2 weeks and was really surprised when I got an alert from the bank that something had been direct deposited. We only got a small sum back, but every little bit helps. I'll probably blog about what we are going to do with the money over on the other blog.

I'm going to try and make some spaghetti with meatballs now, while I have Brian home to watch the baby while I attempt to cook. Have a great weekend! Weigh in tomorrow, so be sure to come back for that.

2 comments:

  1. Spaghetti with meatbals..Mniam.One from my the best meals !

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  2. Is there a baby carrier you can strap to you and fit baby into? Might be easier than hauling a stroller up and down stairs, and might be getting the 2 of you out and about a bit?

    I hate that "cabin fever" feeling! Maybe you guys can schedule a "date night" and have the family look after Drake.

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